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Day 585: Internal Rage Pt. 2

The reason I chose this topic to write about is because there has been time throughout my process where it felt as if I was climbing a mountain upside down, then would become frustrated and not knowing how to put myself back right side up again. Thing is and the reason I would... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

570. I Matter and Selflessness

Or debunking the notion that ‘I had to suffer’ in order to create a change in the world selfless n adjective concerned more with the needs and wishes of others than with one’s own. ‘I Matter’ came at a timely moment where I had been in a way ‘breaking through’ this very... —marlenvargasdelrazo.wordpress.com

546: My Process to Living Passion and Purpose

I recently listened to an Eqafe audio recording regarding the point of Purpose, and Meaning in one's life - and for me it was an awesomely supportive recording because I have walked quite a process, a lifetime with this exact point, and it was only in this past year where I st... —equalitywalk.blogspot.com

Day 584: Internal Rage

When you get to the point where you feel there’s no solution to what you’re experiencing, brought on by a mind possession of thinking that you’re less than and just don’t get things like everyone else does, I mean it feel like you’re on another page than everyone else and no o... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

569. On Sacrifice and Virtuousness

Or understanding the ‘Morally Upright’ construct I’ve been living as in relation to living a process of self-change Continuing with this underlying ‘imprint’ within my personal process of self-change and the relationship to the words ‘being an example’ that can be read in my p... —marlenvargasdelrazo.wordpress.com

A dream coat of a mind-consciousness projection Day 777

If I want presence of and as all things, I have to become that presence. This means I have to hear the life around me as the physical reality. Facing the metaphysical bubbles of self interest, that move as a colored energetic emotional swirl, visible in the subtle and visible... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Progressive separation Day 776

A sense of rushing, where rushing is racing towards something. Rushing to where, for what, when I am here. Why would there be any where but here? Then one becomes tired of the rushing, rush -hing rustle hinge, What is the sound, how colored is this sound with hindrance’s of my... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 397: Why Matter Matters

I matter – what does that mean? What does it mean for me to matter to myself? How can I matter in my daily living, in the simple things, in the regular, everyday stuff? These are questions that have opened up for me recently as I have begun to investigate the word MATTER. The ... —dreamersjourneytolife.wordpress.com

Day 583: An Outsiders Perspective

It’s been some time since I’ve been back in my home town, driving and looking around at what’s left of once a thriving city, where families were built to create a since of belonging, belonging to no one but a belief system of hope, hoping to someday leave this place and bring ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

The storm is only as big as I allow it Day 775

Yesterday a local person I have known for years sat and talked with me. The degree of the use of hyperbole, which uses labels intensified with value judgements, in the words and descriptions used told no real story other than techno-colored dream coat. lol. The word ‘ techno’ ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 328 – Beauty continued to decompose

Continuing with beauty. Particularly supportive this at the moment in my life. Not as I would have problem with beauty or experience something beautiful, I guess it is quite nice. However who I am as life within absolute self-honesty brings up the realization and necessity of ... —talamon.wordpress.com

545: The New Girl, The Nuisance

I recently started a new job so I'm in a new environment with new people, learning new tasks and responsibilities. And immediately what I saw within the first few days of starting was this growing fear of being a nuisance and in the way of others - being a bother to them, beca... —equalitywalk.blogspot.com

568. Sacrificial Sainthood

Or how the idea of ‘being an example to or others’ in my head became another personality to debunk In my case and relationship to living purpose, I noticed that I had defined me doing this process of self change also to ‘be an example for others’ and in that, more veering tow... —marlenvargasdelrazo.wordpress.com

Day 396: Processing At Work

The office I find to be one of the most challenging environments within which to remember and apply the tools of process; breathing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective statements and self-corrective application. While at the office, I find it to be very, very easy to loose myse... —dreamersjourneytolife.wordpress.com

The pressure of thin-king on the heart Day 774

What does it mean to stand as a word that is grounded and aware of itself, in relation to considering all things? How does on have a command as a faith in who and what one is as a starting point as what is constant and here, in all ways? At present, I feel like I am per... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 582: Jumping the Gun

In rush hour traffic, we tend to jump the gun everytime we seeing an opening in the other lane, but as soon as we jump over into the other lane it comes to a halt, and the lane we were previously in moves ahead, where we’re then wonder why we switched lanes in the first place ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

567. I Matter: 1,2,3 Change!

Or how to short-cut ‘the process of change’ by seeing straight into the words ‘I Matter’ It’s been quite interesting to open up this point of ‘I matter’ in the past days and generally getting a sense of what the words together mean for different people, which can be read in a ... —marlenvargasdelrazo.wordpress.com

Being in sink or being in synch Day 773

One of the things I have encountered in my life is how to carry on a conversation. I remember my husband asking me this one time. It would be difficult to carry on a conversation, if one had a lot of memories coming up, with emotional poles, pulling one in a direction. It ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 581: Liar Liar Pants On Fire

Just when you think you have a grip on something, up pops another aspect of it. When placed in a position of being grilled by an establishment, question to the point of uncertainty, where answers had to be given immediately in the moment, in order for something to go through, ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

566. Back on (the) track

Or how to decide to live a word in the small moments of our day and actually live it Today I made a decision to ‘get back on track’ and ‘on the track’ literally speaking after ‘taking some time off’ of my usual routine during the past weeks and I found it’s sometimes a bit dif... —marlenvargasdelrazo.wordpress.com

LOOKING at anger Day 771

LOOKING at anger. Fear can be so blinding. one cannot see the forest through the trees. As one is so focused on the lack, as the fear, which is a loss of presence and what is natural as common sense. Fear is not being in solution. It is being in projection. I cannot ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

From Spite to Recognition of Perspectives

An uncomfortable point of anger and spite that came up within me this weekend has to do with the ongoing saga, Horrible Neighbours or Horrible Me that my partner and I have been walking as part of our personal processes and investigation/participation in the local legal system... —thomaslagrua.blogspot.tw

544: Decade with Desteni - Transcending Laziness

Looking back on the years of self-writing, and blogging, I see a particular pattern wherein I am reflecting a lot on resistances I experience within my day to day living. I am still working with, and walking through a pattern of laziness, or not wanting to do this or that, and... —equalitywalk.blogspot.com

What is LOOKING ; continued Day 770

What is LOOKING continued. Lately, I so notice when I have missed what is right in front of me. An example is having used a kitchen device. This device has a tool that comes with it, to process the food more effectively. The other day, while using this device, I stood there a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 580: Believing Others Words, (The Sky is Falling Down)

Without investigation we follow and believe things whole heartedly, straight into Never, Never land, where we’ll never change until we stop believing all the bullshit that sound good and or houses fear, to the point of believing, that it’s imperative that we do thing, this, th... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Segmented practices that show us who we are. Day 769

Why do I fear LOOKING? In performing, I have practiced being focused on myself, the movement of music around me, as parts and the overall whole. This is what looking is, and when accepting of what is, one sees the greater structure, and can retain more presence , even withi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 327 – A beauty point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value and worth, power and energy into the design of judgement of beauty, as distraction, as self-interest, as self-definition and not realizing that this pattern, behavior and act separates from my self-created ... —talamon.wordpress.com

Day 395: The Power of Writing

How to remain self-honest and walk process, how to not get distracted and lost in the entertainment offered within the system, how to keep one’s focus and chosen direction in life even though so much time goes into working, money, and other forms of responsibilities that must ... —dreamersjourneytolife.wordpress.com

A Dream of Being Lost - Part IV

I had another dream in relation to the point of alcohol. I was at a bar, inside the bar with a couple of people that I knew, but not enough to remember their names. I had been trying for some time to get a beer and was getting a little frustrated feeling more and more thirsty.... —thomaslagrua.blogspot.tw

The ungroundedness of self interest Day 767

Two days ago I had an interaction with a man. I had been waiting to use an ATM. He was the next in line. For some reason, I assumed he was with the person in the ATM. Perhaps because he was standing somewhat at a distance from the AT> The person in the ATM came out, and I move... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com