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Nestrpnost, nervoza, tečnoba, slabovoljnost, čemernost, nezadovoljstvo… SAMOKOREKCIJA 8

Odpustim si, da sem sprejela in si dopustila z ogorčenjem reagirat na buddy-jev predlog ''začni razmišljat tudi kako lahko ob skrbi za babico uživaš; zdaj se sliši nemogoče, ker tega nikoli nisi videla kot nekaj možnega''. Zavedam se, da je skrb za dementnega človeka konkreten... —

Day 355: Waiting for Others to do, What I should for Myself

The easiest thing in the world to do is to become comfortable with accepting others willingly taking care of you and to have everything that you want need and desire at your fingertips, I mean who wouldn’t want this for themselves, when offered? Throughout my life I have becom... —

429. What Relationships Can Be In This World I just remembered how when I was growing up and going through school, I saw the disparity that existed between people. I used to be the one that would always get it ‘all right’ and it truly saddened me to see that others could see thems... —

Day 686 Revisiting Blame. Realizing the practice of self forgiveness and self correction.

When I go into anger I go into fear. My reflection is then based on limitation, as I am fearing survival more than being present here, equal and one to the math of existence, a physical existence. I mean, why does television effective? Why is the measure of it so ubiquitous? ... —

Day 354: How Easy

How easy do we believe in lies when there’s no telling of the truth, you say it, I believe it and that’s all to it. Because I heard it from a creditable source, that’s all that matters to me, I mean it can’t be a lie because I saw it on T.V. We all know the world is a mess, e... —

Nestrpnost, nervoza, tečnoba, slabovoljnost, čemernost, nezadovoljstvo… SAMOKOREKCIJA 7

Odpustim si, da NISEM sprejela in si dopustila samo-korekcij, ki sem jih v preteklosti izpisala v kar lepem številu blogov (skupaj z nadaljevalnimi blogi pod naslovi Babica, kaj še delaš tu… & Dementne dogodivščine) potem v popolnosti vnesti v prakso; zaradi česar sem pokasir... —

Day 686 Am I really insignificant? I am here, I am physical. The value is being life.

If I expect others to infer any emotional poles behind my words, are I not expecting others to see the emotional pole within me as something as real as I believe it to be?? ( This is actually insane!) And if I have to expose that emotional pole, and a solution is given to me,... —

Day 259 – Party, Drugs and Awareness part 2

Dancing continued from where I stopped in the last post. This time I dig deeper into the mechanics of my mind, how I experienced myself and things, what was the reason I went into trance dance and how I tried to use to transcend my limitations and eventually how I realized tha... —

Day 353: What Are You Waiting For

The weather to be the right temperature, before we act on something. The sky to fall down before we realize our world is collapsing around us. Somebody else to make the first move, before we even lift a finger to change ourselves and the way this world is today, but wait, let ... —

Day 586 - The Origin of Defeatism

Defeatism is a point that, as I look at it now, has been something that I have gone into a LONG time ago and basically only realising this point now and how I have allowed myself to participate in in thoughts and in my experience of myself within points of work and in points o... —

Fear of Speaking up. DAY 374 27 Saturday Feb 2016 Posted by vixensjournetolife in Vixen's Journey to Life ≈ Leave a comment

Tagsbeing a coward, fear of saying something, fear of speaking up, fear of speaking up to bullies, how to stop being a coward How do you stand up and speak up in moments where you see another doing something that is compromising/not best for all? I have often experienced mys... —

Day 258 – Party, Drugs and Awareness part 1

Recently I’ve visited a contemporary dance event, it’s type was psytrance. Since quite some years I visit these kind of parties and as I’ve changed during my process of self-realization, my starting point, experience and the very self-expression also have been transformed, whi... —

Day 352: My Problems

My problems are my problem and your problem is your problem, but I make them my problem, because it seems as if I have too many problems to deal with at the moment, so I need your problems to over shadow my problems and someone to blame for my problems and that way I don’t hav... —

Day 685 The Caregiver Archetype continued. Self Corrective Statements.

The Caregiver Archetype Today I had a meeting where I had to evaluate information I had accumulated and listen to perspectives about that information. I then had to frame the perspective in practical ways, calling measure by name. For example, the description of an embedded... —

Day 607 - The Continuing Vaccine Story

So, as I wrote in my blog, Holding Ourselves Accountable, I have been studying the facts surrounding vaccines, which is really part of this whole world system which is in place. I have come to realize the extent of damage/injury in practically everyone I meet, from the subtle... —

Day 297: Wanting The Big Means Missing The Small

I have seen that in wanting the big, I tend to miss the small – and what is interesting here is that the big things might seem significant, yet when looking closely, the big is actually constituted by the small. So, where does this apply? For myself I have seen this in particu... —

Day 351: Lay it All Out in Front of You

Throughout my life I have always saw things as different individual separate problem, not as a conglomeration of events that takes place in correlation with each other, that has built up over time and have accumulated to become this massive big problem, being the way I was liv... —

Day 684 Continuation of the Caregiver Archetype. Day 2.

In relation to the caregiver archetype, I have had pressure on the back of my neck for some time. Also, there appears to be some pressure behind my eyes. When I would go and look at the pressure behind my eyes, I would experience thoughts about my sisters. It was that my siste... —

Day 683 The archetype of the caregiver. My journey to life.

The Caregiver Archetype Placing value in being needed by others. This has been character that I have been aware of for some time. I realize that this is not being self responsible, it is seeking meaning through being needed by others. It is character picked up from my mother... —

Day 350: The Good Book

Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, Deuteronomy, Joshua, Judges, Ruth, and so on to Revelations. Growing up we were taught to recite every book of the bible from genesis to Revelation, the good book, where if you knew the bible and what the bible says then you would be saved,... —

[127] Wealth and Shared Humanity

What cultural clashes exist when a person from the first world meets life in an underdeveloped country? How is mutual trust affected when there’s money at stake in human relationships? How does wealth inequality separate our humanity? How have money and possessions become part... —

Day 296: Redefining Purpose

Creating my purpose, which is a process I have walked actively for a while now. I have from time to time experienced myself conflicted in this process, and mostly this has been related to the feeling that things are not moving fast enough, that I am not getting through, that I... —

Day 585 - Defeatism

Currently, within my life, there are a few points that I have been feeling defeated by in relation to the money system and world system in and as how it operates and functions. Within these points of defeatism I have been allowing quite a bit of backchat to exist within myself... —

Day 349: “What Do You Do”?

It’s pretty interesting how when we meet someone for the first time, the major/main question we get to in the long run is, “What do you do”, now it’s funny because this question will also determine how far the conversation will go from there, depending on the answer to the que... —

Day 412 - Commitment to Speak Daily Self-Forgiveness

Over the past year +, I've been practicing speaking self forgiveness out loud, and I've noticed a pretty significant shift in my process. The main difference is this sense of solid, grounded movement. Like, if you're familiar with writing the self forgiveness out on paper or o... —

Day 348: Back in a Familiar Setting

It’s been a long time since I’ve been back in a familiar setting, back in the town I used to live in, I mean a lot of things went down in this town, before I started my process where my transition phase from who I was to finding Desteni was tremendous, from the perspective of ... —

Day 295: Preparation and Planning – then – Execution

Today at work, I had a moment of epiphany. Now, for some context, in my line of work; precision, detail, thoroughness, and specificity are very important. An entire body of work can in practice be ruined if some small details are missed. That is why, in order to do the work ef... —

Day 347: Speak out loud, Not in your Mind

Why do we walk around with our heads down, hoping somebody say something to us, but as soon as they do we say, “I’m sorry”, as if the last thing on our minds is them speaking to us, we’ll even go as far as getting close to them, but not once look them in the eye, because if we... —

Day 294: Why Winning Is A Limitation

Is winning something good? Does winning benefit and support us in our expression? It is normal to view winning as a positive experience. Winning is something most people strive towards, in various ways. Winning in our career through getting the best job, winning in our persona... —

Desire for Recognition - Fear of Sharing - Selfishness

One of the points I have noticed within me in relation to working with colleagues in the system is that I am sometimes reluctant to share with others the materials I have created. Additionally, there sometimes arises within me a fear that, I will not receive credit or pay... —