Member since April 2015.

Carlton Tedford

Day 247: Without Self-Forgiveness

Imagine for a moment, where would you be, and what would you have done up until this point in your life without Self-Forgiveness. I have and it’s not pretty picture. This morning, I had a flurry of thought to come up within and as me, about my past, and what had transpired wit... —

Day 246: Think Twice Before You . . .

As if the first time wasn’t enough. Have you ever heard this saying; “Think twice before you” and so on and so forth? Most of the times this saying is related to someone thinking that someone is about to make a “bad” decision, so the say something like; “You better think twice... —

Day 245: Talking About What You Know VS.Talking About What You Live

Talking about what you know and you think you know it for sure, is what people live for, without an inkling of an idea of what’s really going on. Talking about what you live is harder than what it seem, especially when there’s change involved from what you use to be. Talking... —

Day 244: Change in a Flash

Have you ever spoken to someone one day and had a cool normal conversation with them and then the next time you see them, they act as if they don’t know you and won’t even look at you to save the world, so to speak? When you confront them and say “Hi”, they’ll ignore you and c... —

Day 243: Keeping Up

This is the longest stretch of time that I’ve ever stuck with anything and might I say, this is the hardest thing that I have ever done in my life. I am speaking about the process, I am currently walking. What I realize within this process is that you have to be on your toes (... —

Day 242: Flip Flopping

Flip flopping is terminology used in the political area where one candidate would accuse the other of going back on their stance about the way they would handle or have handled a government issue, in the past, present or future tense or thing in order to get elected. In layman... —

Day 241: Manipulation

In grade school and/or in some neighborhood, back in the day, fighting was a pretty big thing, where you would have two young kids with a crowd around them getting ready to fight, which they probably really didn’t want to, but the crowd was around, and in the crowd there would... —

Day 240: Hurt Yourself

A Band-Aide is for a cut, scrape or scratch that bleeds. A cast is for when a bone is broken somewhere in your body. Have you ever ran into a wall and stubbed your pinky toe and then laid down screaming, waiting for the pain to go? Or How many times have you yelled when you’... —

Day 239: Stringing You Along

The concept of stinging someone alone is done when someone has you waiting and wanting something to happen that doesn’t happen. You can be minding your own business and someone tells you something out the blue that you weren’t expecting to hear, that has to do with a potential... —

Day 238: Offering

What a word, offering, from my perspective, it seems as if this is a nice inconspicuous way to say “give me money”. Growing up in and around churches, I have experienced plenty of offering; ways to invoke people into giving there hard earned money. A normal offering is when (i... —

Day 237: Read/Listen/Learn/Apply

YOU know how when you’re in grade school, in reading class and the class is on a particular chapter in the lesson book and the teacher then starts with the front row of the class and have every student to read a paragraph, this would make me so nervous, because I didn’t like t... —

Day 236: Sleeping and Dreaming

We’ve come up with plenty of slogans to validate sleeping, the act of, (or not) such as; “I need my beauty sleep” and “If I don’t get my eight (8) hours of sleep, I’ll be cranky in the morning” and “They/you woke up this morning on the wrong side of the bed” and also “Sleep is... —

Day 235: Rolodex

However the mind operates, we create it in reality, from a rolodex to computers, to you name it, but for now, there is a fascinating similarity to a rolodex that I found how my mind operates. A rolodex is a rotating file device used to store information. The mind is an automa... —

Day 234: Impress

The illusion of stability where one use knowledge and information, a look or an act to show off to someone else in trying to make yourself seem more than what you really are or know. When looking at the word impress, within the sounding or the word, it sounds like the word imp... —

Day 233: Blame

There was this ole television series called Family Matters where one of the main character’s named Steve Urkel, every time he would do something/mess up something or make a mistake, his favorite saying was; “Oh, Did I do that” and everyone would laugh, but at least he acknow... —

Day 232: Living Alone

One of the most difficult living situations that I have lived in is living alone. I mean I’ve lived in almost every living situation that you can think of, not to say that they’re any better, they all have they’re ups and downs, highs and lows, conflict situations within a sit... —

Day 231: One of those Days

It started with watching a movie the night before I went to bed, where I then dreamed about the movie with awareness meaning every time a scene from the movie, a picture of one of the actors or the dialogue would come up in my dream, I would stop it, wake myself up, apply self... —

Day 230: Only Because They said so

Who are you waiting for? Why do we only listen when certain people tell us the same thing that we’ve heard from somebody else and didn’t listen to them for some reason or another, and then turn right back around and say what you’ve just heard (for the second time) to the first... —

Day 229: Ultimatum

How many times have you given a person an ultimatum or received an ultimatum from someone? In other words; “you better do this or that and if you don’t, this or that will happen”. I mean we’re driven by fear so much that we will do just about anything that someone says, if we’... —

Day 228: Looks can be Deceiving

Or might I say, looks are deceiving. The statement; “what you see”… is not always what you get, because we chose things for the looks, not the actual getting to know it/them. I mean when you go grocery shopping and pick up a piece of fruit or vegetable, you don’t just put it i... —

Day 227: Calm as the Resolve

If you know that you are correct about and incident with another person, preferably about money, where they asked you to do a favor for them with the promise of being paid back and/or paid for the favor and you leave it up to the person to contact you and fulfill their promise... —

Day 226: Why Do We

Why do we feel excited before we eat? Why do we feel lethargic before we sleep? Why do we feel like changing, but don’t actually do it? Why do we feel the need to put ourselves through it? Why do we feel like talking when we don’t know what to say? Babbling is the disease of... —

Day 225: Watch the Words you speak

Cause and effect, meaning they may cause the person/persons whom you are speaking with to take drastic measure against someone about something they really have no clue or idea about, all they did was listen to you speak and them being your friend formed and opinion about that ... —

Day 224: My Process an Action Movie

Growing up I wasn’t able to watch movies, I was more of an outside person, where being outside for me was like watching an action movie in itself, with scenes, play outs and characters. All I had to do was go out and sit on the back porch (or front porch) and watch everyone an... —

Day 223: Paying Too much Attention to my Conscious Mind Thoughts

“And I thought they would never go away”. Throughout my process I’ve tried to make it a point to notice and forgive every single thought that comes up in my mind, whether it’s just passing through and/or there to make me react with an emotion or feeling. What I’ve noticed was ... —

Day 222: Be on Your Best Behavior

The question is; how is this possible, being that if you have particular behavior patterns, which one is the best one? Obviously an extensive amount of fear had to be instilled into someone for them to realize the difference between good, bad and your best behavior. In my case... —

Day 221: Testimony

To tell or give witness of an experience or experiences that has taken place in your life. Growing up was when I first learned this word and the act of doing, behind it. It was what I saw people doing in church, where they would stand up and tell their experiences of things, i... —

Day 220: Hiding Behind Self-Interest (My Perspective)

One thing I’ve notice about some self-interest is that you’re not really interested in what you think you are, only but for a momentary purpose. It’s sort of like a passing fad, where you’re interested in something in one moment and after you get it or have done that which you... —

Day 219: Roaming Eyes

Have you ever heard the saying; “what you see is what you get?” Well that was a lie, from the perspective of if you got everything that you saw, then you would understand yourself and that’s where my roaming eyes comes into play. Growing up I watched everything as in what peo... —

Day 218: Be Afraid, Be Very Afraid (or NOT)

(Things that we are or have been afraid of) Why are we so afraid when the lights go out or the silence being eerie when we’re alone in our house? We wake up in a cold sweat, talking about I just had a bad dream, not realizing the bad part is what you’ve created and seen, have ... —