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Carlton Tedford

Day 516: Nothing to Say (Self-Forgiveness) Pt 2

Continuing… For context refer to Day 514: Nothing to Say Pt 2 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience wanting to say something and/or respond to something in a private chat, with friends and in a group, that I just didn’t know how to put it in wo... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 515: Nothing to Say (Self-Forgiveness)

For context refer to Day 513: Nothing to Say For when those moments come up, where I excuse myself into believing I have nothing to say; I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as if I’m tongue tied when words are on the tip of my tongue, but don’t wan... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 514: Nothing to Say Pt 2

Mums the word, have you ever experienced wanting to say something or respond to something in an open forum, with friend, or in a group, that you just didn’t, or didn’t know how to put it in word in the moment and all of a sudden, someone else beat you to the punch, so to speak... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 513: Nothing to Say

When words are on the tip of your tongue, but don’t want to come out right when speaking them to someone or write them down = you feel as if you’re ‘tongue tied’. In the moment when you’re flabbergasted, when the News is Jaw dropping, and you’re stuck with nothing to say, is a... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 512: Management Pt 4

Wrapping up this blog series on Management, I now see the seriousness needed to Manage oneself at all times, I mean seriously it’s not that hard to do, it only takes investigating one’s relationship to the word management, then one’s relationship to oneself, to become one with... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 511: Management Pt 3

For context start Here Day: 509 Corrective Management = Managing the inner most Core of oneself, meaning what constitutes who you have become, to correcting and changing yourself to who you are as life, which was beyond me at that point in my life, as I still was aligned to th... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 510: Management Pt 2

More on Management – Being that as if when you reach your Man-Age/Wo-Man-Age you’re supposed to be able to manage yourself, I mean in our house hold, once you turned 18 you were pretty much kicked out, meaning it was time for you to go out on your own and face the world, to ma... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 509: Management

When one thinks of management we think of a hierarchy, the upper echelon, authority figures, the elite, your boss, anyone who is above you that runs a company, business or group which is so, or may not be, but what is rarely considered is the origin of management, which is se... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 508: Music as The Movement Inside Me (Self-Forgiveness) Conclusion

So, picking up where I left of in my last post; I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have repelled silence as if it was kill me, where, I felt I needed some form of sound around to cool me down and keep me from going crazy, back and forth from happy to s... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 507: Music as The Movement Inside Me (Self-Forgiveness)

For context start HERE, at Day 505 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have become a music fanatic in relations to the way it made me feel, whenever I would listen to it for a period of time in one setting, where I would jump from memory to memory, from... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 506: Music as The Movement Inside Me Pt 2

Continued.. We repel silence as if it was killing us, stemming from when we were young and told to go take as time out or it’s quiet time, I mean without something going on or playing in the background, it’s hard for one to be calm, so we think. Have you ever had that friend w... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 505: Music as The Movement Inside Me

As recently as 4 year ago, I was a music fanatic, in relations to how it made me feel, whenever I would listen to it for a period of time in one setting, jumping from memory to memory, from emotion to feeling, from reaction to relaxing, I mean it defined every morsel/fiber of ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 504: Request to Ultimatum

In this post, I’ll be having another look at Ultimatum and what’s opened up since the last time I’ve written about it. Enjoy Is all to bait me into believing that I had a choice, when the choice have already been made for you, where on both ends you’ll end up losing, which is ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 503: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why (Self-forgiveness on Paid Off)

For context, refer to: Day 499: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why Day 500: Can You keep a Secret, And Why Pt 2 Day 501: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why Pt 3 Day 502: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why (Self-Forgiveness on Lying) In conclusion, I’ll do some Self-Forgiveness on receivi... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day: 502: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why (Self-Forgiveness on Lying)

For context, refer to: Day 499: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why Day 500: Can You keep a Secret, And Why Pt 2 Day 501: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why Pt 3 Here I’ll do Self-Forgiveness on the aspect of lying, when asked if I knew something and told to keep a secret by someone e... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 501: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why Pt 3

Previously on: “Can You Keep a Secret, And Why” Pt 2 Goes to show that it doesn’t pay to lie for someone to keep their secret, as I have experienced the consequences first hand of this, that had a major affected on me and my Military career from there on, until I got out. More... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 500: Can You keep a Secret, And Why Pt. 2

Previously On: “Can You Keep a Secret, And Why”; Although this secret wasn’t such a big deal in my dream, what was though, was the aspect of lying, when asked if I knew something, I refused to say yes, and as I look back on it, in a way I had accepted a payment in the form of ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 499: Can You Keep a Secret, And Why

To see discretely what I’m about tell you, is like an unspoken oath we take after saying “Yes and of course”, to not tell the person we were told not to tell what we heard, although at the end of the day all secrets must and will come out. Beyond gossip, what secret lies under... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 498: Unformatted Writing

More like a rant and a rave on what comes up in your mind in the moment, during your everyday interaction with yourself, is what I use to create my unformatted writings, sometimes the structure is in the way one “wings” it, just right down the thoughts how they come out, as th... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 497: Going Somewhere!

Being that we’re driven by the thoughts in our head, every day is a seek to boldly go where no man has gone before, but everybody been, into deeper dimension in our minds with thoughts, that drives us into doing things and going places, because our minds told us so. Outside of... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 496: People Watcher

Sitting ideally by waiting for someone to make a mistake to shun them, then saying, when I grow up, I’ll never do that, but not limited to the child you once were, as an adult it becomes a passion of ours to sit back everywhere we are and watch people, one would ask why are yo... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 495: A Story of Sounding Self-Forgiveness

I never talked so long that made sense to me, let alone period in my life, my conversations with others were short and sweet, with no substance at all, and with myself the only conversations I had was me chastising myself as to why the fuck did I just do this, that and the oth... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 494: Satisfied

As an after statement, meaning I Sat in This Feeling until I Died, unable to Expand, Grow and Develop, because I embellished a way to be content, just give me a wife/husband, a roof over my head and a way to pay rent, or any combination that suits my self-interest, and a lot o... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 493: The Dark Side

Revenge is an ugly thing, powerful to those wielding the hammer of spite, in spite of being wronged in the first place. It’s fascinating how every villain in every story, movie, fairy tale or books, past is overlooked, what really happened and the person who vilified them then... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 492: Trapped in One Frame of Mind

Let it go, release it or find yourself depleted of the will power to continue surviving in this world, only doing the minimal to stay afloat, every day is a dumpster dive to stay alive, accepting scrapes from the belly of the beast just to eat, I mean clearly nothing else is o... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 491: Write About It, Fight About It

It’s not a pretty picture, when your past comes back to haunt you, but the haunting is only a hunt when you put up a fight, not wanting to see you in the looking glass through the words you put down, in writing out your binary code, to make adjustments as need, when you go to ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 490: A Sense of Belonging

Nowhere have I really felt at home, trapped within the space between my ears, unable to hear the gears of the System shifting into time, slowly, erasing the mind I had, way back then, when things wasn’t so easy to forget, but eventually I forgot who I was and created a burial ... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 489: Self-Manipulation

“Believe me you, because I’ve seen it with my own two eyes, in my mind as clear as day, so whatever you say doesn’t matter, I will move ahead in implementing what it is I want to do with what I want to believe in and that’s that”. Self-Manipulation is believing the Back Chat i... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 488: The Weirdest Dream of Abuse

As a preface, the littlest thing that we don’t pay attention to, think that, it’s nothing to be concern about, that we can use it, abuse it and discard it, because it’s the normal thing to do, is that of ourselves that we’ve forgotten about, forgot that this, that and the othe... —carltontedford.wordpress.com

Day 487: The Energy Surrounding the Holidays

Have you ever noticed the day after any Holidays, it seems as if it was all for nothing, I mean the energy is gone and we’re left stuck looking at these flimsy ass presents we got to pass the time away, then the next day, we go right back to work? I mean if you could bottle al... —carltontedford.wordpress.com