Member since April 2015.

Carlton Tedford

Day 305: Shifting Gears (A climate for giving up or Change)

Ok so the other day, I took a bike ride to go visit a family member that stays quite a way’s from where I live, now I’ve done this ride plenty of times before, where on the last stretch of the ride, it’s about a mile or so uphill ride and each time, I would do this stretch on ... —

Day 304: Prolong – Self-Forgiveness

This post is a continuation from Day 303: Prolong (For Context; I mean knowing that I would eventually get to doing what I had/have to do, just made it worst, from the perspective of being consumed with the thought of knowing that I have to do something, but have not yet start... —

Day 303: Prolong

Throughout my life I have become a Pro at taking a long time to do something, complete something, start something and in general, where I would wait until the last minute to do things and excuse it as, “just taking my time, because I want to get it right” or “I have to build m... —

Day 302: Weighing All my Options

First off the only option we have, is to clean up the mess up that we made to this world and existence as a whole, there is no other tangible, viable, alternative solution, but to take responsibility for self in what we each individually have perpetuated into this world existi... —

Day 301: The Buck Stops Here

Have you ever read the fine print in contracts or on a wall in a laundry mat, where it says we are not responsible, if this or that happens to you or your things? In essence what’s being done is what you may call “Buck passing”, where the person/business don’t want to take res... —

Day 300: Get with the Program

I have classified myself as an outsider, ever since I can remember, where I’ve always experienced myself as not fitting in with any group of friends (growing up), where I didn’t participate in any social groups or hang with the cool kids and when they would tell me come on get... —

Day 299: The Lack Of

The lack of food (as we have made it in this reality) will make you hungry, starve and die. The lack of water will make you dizzy, faint and cry. The lack of transportation, makes it harder for you to get from one place to the next. With the lack of vision, you will not be abl... —

Day 298: Projecting Ahead

Before I started walking my process, I’ve always wanted to see what’s around the corner (per se), from the perspective of looking ahead to what I would do next in my day, week, month that was enjoyable to me and something I deemed cool to look forward to doing, that would take... —

Day 297: Skip My Mind

(I really mean, Skip My Mind) How many times have you let things skip you mind, then turned around and made up a lie, as if the lie was what you were thinking, and when you say it, your eyes start blinking, because you know way down deep inside, you suppressed this thought and... —

Day 296: Keep it REAL, but Not in the MIND

Isn’t it interesting how we compound fact with exaggeration once it reaches our minds and call it keeping it real? I mean the fact that it reached our mind should be evident enough in realizing that “Ok I’ve taken it a bit too far from the conversation I had with someone a whi... —

Day 295: WAIT and Investigate

Before you go running off at the mouth or in the mind about whose fault it is that this or that is not working correctly or doesn’t work at all; WAIT and Investigate. Before it’s too late and you stick your foot in your mouth; WAIT and investigate. I know it’s hard to have pat... —

Day 294: What You See is What You Think

What you see is what you think and if you think then you will feel and if you feel then you will react and when you react, you are extracting pure essence from your Human Physical Body (In a nut shell). It goes, what you see is what you think about, and when you think about wh... —

Day 293: When The Mind Goes “Ham”

Going “Ham” is a slang terminology used when someone or something is going Hard on something or someone/without stopping, hence the title of this post ‘When The Mind Goes “Ham”. So, have you ever experienced yourself having this unforeseen/way out there, thought to come up wit... —

Day 292: Automation/Automated

When I was young we had this pull string little Frankenstein Doll that, every time you pulled the string it would give you a different “spooky” Automated response. Now being a child I vaguely, but do remember having a few dreams about this Frankenstein Doll, but I can’t rememb... —

Day 291: Brainwashed (My Perspective)

Imagine for a second if you will, an industrial washing machine that only runs on one cycle, Spin and in using the analogy of the wash machine Spinning your Brain and the Spin cycle being your thought, it’s shouldn’t be too hard to comprehend just how Brainwashed we are. Now t... —

Day 290: Who Are You

Who will you make myself up to be today or better yet in the next moment to come. Why are we being controlled by what we think, instead of realizing what we’ve done? It takes just one spit second for us to change, from being nice to being something strange. And then to forget,... —

Day 289: I Know Vs. I Don’t Know

I KNOW This is terminology that I’ve used quite a few time throughout my life, where I’ve used “I know” in a few different ways, as in; “I know what you’re saying but”… to add my point of view, as an exception to the rule of sorts, within that, I knew what the person was sayin... —

Day 288: My Type?

What type is that, is the question that is always asked. We all on some level or another are effectuated with type, within the different types of thing we do and don’t like, such as the type of clothes we would wear, the type of hairstyle we like and would sport, the type of f... —

Day 287: Train of Thought

“Man I forgot what I was thinking”. “Oh well it’ll come back to me sooner or later, so what was I saying again”? How many time have this experience happened to you, where you lose your train of thought and say things like; “Man it’s right on the tip of my tongue, but I just ca... —

Day 286: Because of You (ME)

Because of you, I am writing this note, to Self to let you know, that I am noticing what I have done, to get us to this point, and what we’ve designed together, in separation from each other, but still oneself that’s flesh, in one body with one head and one chest. Before conce... —

Day 285: Deal with It

No one said that this process would be easy, but have you ever, within your process experienced the intensification of your body assisting and supporting you to stay out of your mind through the presentation of pain, where whenever you are focusing on one thing, or supposed to... —

Day 284: Threats

We live under constant threat from ourselves, where everything we have accepted and allowed ourselves to consist of and exist as is fear, therefore everything we do is based on a threat, consisting of/existing as the fear of loss. Have a look; let’s take our jobs for instance,... —

Day 283: What God Wants

Why is it that everyone seems to know what god wants? Is it because they have a direct line of communication connected straight to god, consisting of two cans and a string? The reason I use this analogy of two can and a string is because, are you really hearing what’s going on... —

Day 282: Little Moments of Frustration

There is a pattern that I found within myself, where when the unexpected happens in one moment, I become frustrated and momentarily shut down, because I don’t have an immediate answer to what has just happened. It’s like W.T.F. just happen, for example let’s say I’m doing work... —

Day 281: Getting Even

We tell on one another under the assumption that we won’t get in trouble to, but when it all boils down and we’re asked, why we didn’t say something in the first place, we then realize that we have just told on ourselves. We perpetuate getting even with one another, under the ... —

Day 280: It’s not about you

*Note to Self* Whenever you hear two people talking amongst them self, most likely it’s not about you. The look that you get when passing someone on the street is not about you. For some, whenever you see a policeman in your rearview mirror, most likely it’s not about you (... —

Day 279: Lip Service

Lip Service is the speaking of knowledge and information without taking any action behind the words that you speak. I’m sure you’ve all heard the terminology and/or the sayings; “You’re all lip service, with nothing to back it up” and “All you do is talk, talk, talk with no ac... —

Day 278: Minds Mouth

As an analogy, the mind has a mouth of its own that others cannot hear speak, but see that it has spoken through your expressions, as in the way you look at them, the way you treat them and your actions towards them in general. And a tale tell sign of this is when you’re sitti... —

Day 277: Dream Manipulation

An interesting thing that I realized within my dream is me realizing that I’m dreaming and trying to manipulate myself, my ways and my actions within the dream. I mean have you ever had a dream that seemed so real, but you knew it was a dream, but still allowed yourself to pa... —

Day 276: Loud Noise

In the comic book world, loud noises are insinuated with a BOOM, POW, BANG, SPLAT, Etc. where we then go into our minds within our imaginations and animate what we see and read. This then becomes a self-created movie within our imagination, so in fact we create and hear these ... —