Gian Robberts

Day 32 part 1 - A Bully spawns from Family.

Hard to swallow and to admit, all bullies are created at home, from within the family, it should be quite obvious that bullies can only be created at home, all children spend most of their time learning in their first seven years of their lives at home from parents and older s... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 31 - why do I hold back.

Why do I hold back when I see I need to act, this is a pattern that I am working with now in terms of participating in my world, within what I can do in and as space and time. As an example, I have been wanting to do vlogs about many points for the last couple of months, ye... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 30 - Tiredness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that every time I am tired that I must sleep. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am feeling tired that I am tired, lol it is only a feeling, realizing that when ... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 29 - Is it a Sin to be a Virgin.

Being a Virgin always felt like a sin, I could not tell my friends I was still a virgin, I made up stories and lied about it, mostly avoided it, when I watched movies like American Pie or Road Trip or Euro Trip and many other movies that are the same type, where with in the mo... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 28 - conversations with myself.

The never ending conversations we have with ourselves, it is really stupid and unnecessary, talking about stuff and making decisions about stuff while talking to yourself about it, how can anything be relevant then, you are giving yourself feedback in your own mind, it is like... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 27 - I have to impress them.

meeting new people? Do you feel you have to impress them and that if you do not then they will think bad of you, ever felt like you have to hold onto this image and idea of yourself when meeting new people and that you have to maintain this idea and image, it is really tiring ... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 26 - Don't interrupting my conversation

I hate it when I am speaking/talking and someone interrupts me and just go on talking with out caring if I was busy talking. And by the time they are dong everything I said simply is forgotten, and the whole conversation has turned and everyone Else's focused had shifted and d... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 25 - Massaging someone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist massaging another when I am asked to. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when someone asks me to massage them. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ha... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 24 - some Stress

forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stress about things. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with in stressing about thing. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that being stress... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 22 - walk alone as LIFE. (all as one)

I walk alone - this is not referring to actual walking but a walk with in LIFE. Today the point opened up, No matter what I do, where I am, with who I ma or how I am, I am always alone with myself and Who I am. Through out my life I have tried surrounding myself with wh... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 21 - Purpose and Life.

What is my purpose here on earth, to be alive and breathing? (it should be that simple) I have asked myself this question many times before in my life. I have searched and I have found many purposes, they all end up disappearing and fading away because in time they all started... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 20 - Dirty Eyes filled with sex, blind to reality.

Have you ever noticed during your day how your mind is filled with sexual content such as pictures, ideas, believes, fantasies and then when you look around in your world all you see is sex, constantly comparing every women/men with each other and self and so within the compar... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 19 - The pattern of violent thoughts.

When in town, thoughts come up of me having to fight someone, having to defend myself against other people that is in my environment. This creates a constant inner fight with myself and who I am, as I completely change who I am in order to impose an idea onto others, the id... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 18 - Rotten Child Syndrome. Rotten world.

I am about 4 years old, I am sitting at the dinner table, I do not want to finish my dinner, I do not like the food, one of my parents say, if you do not finish your dinner you will not get pudding, I slowly start eating more and I find I can not get it all in, I consider to b... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 17 - Let my EGO punch something NOW.

During my day I have these moments where I feel I have achieved something, like finishing a project or getting a good score in the reading program I am doing, or I will say something and it was great and it made a lot of sense, mostly when these thing occur I see that I feel I... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 16 - Emotions with in words.

Why is it every time I have something to say that makes a lot of sense turns out to be a fuck up when I speak, why is it that when I speak up and say what needs to be said it turns out to become a mess, why is it that when I face a point of conflict with in my world that it al... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 15 - who you are determines what you do!! who am I?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I do determines who I am. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do things in my life in the hope that it will determine who I am. I forgive myself that I have accepted an... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 14 - I broke a girls hart , past relationship.

This was a few years ago, there is still guilt, shame and fear, as I now see what I have accepted and allowed from the start of the relationship and what led to the end, where both partners get hurt. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 13 - Insecurity.

Why am I insecure I asked myself today, I looked at the point and I saw that I had a belief about myself, that I have hidden things with in me that I fear can be exposed. I can not see what the things are that I fear that can be exposed right now, I just know it is a feelin... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 12 - Self trust, with people or alone, who I am.

I noticed today a really odd pattern that I did not fully understand but yet I could see it and that it was here, in my face. We were all working together outside for a while and while we all were working together I made the observation that me and everyone else was working... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 11 - How will I ever change this point.

It has been four years since I became aware of my ability to read and write and how bad I am at it, I have been working on the point so many times, over and over as I start reading and applying myself daily with in reading and writing there is always something else that takes ... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 10 - Receiving/asking for help, stopping the ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being helped by another person and that it will be seen as a weakness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see help as weakness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mys... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 9 - Limited Time to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not fully realize that I have a limited time with in the physical to change and correct myself as that which is best for all life and rebirth myself as life in each breath. I forgive myself that I have accepted and... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 8 - developing half assed skills through comparison

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself towards others. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself towards others with in what I do. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare mys... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 7 - Using memories to remind me as untrustworthy.

Many time I have a very busy schedule in relation to thing happening during the day, I would in the morning tell myself OK I have to do this, then that, then that, then that and then I also have to remember to switch the pumps at that time, and switching the pumps includes fli... —gianjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Fear of Snakes biting me and self forgiveness.

I work with a lot of animals on the farm, some are snakes, others are lizards (big one’s) and some are our normal daily farm companions such as the dogs or cats and the parrots we have. When I work with the animals I have this constant expectation/fear that the animal will... —gianrobberts01.blogspot.com

My Story with gaining Muscles and the Physical design.

I am currently 22 years old and 1.77m tall, I weigh 64kg, before joining Desteni I was 18 years old and was 1.72m tall and weighed 55kg. Where does the Idea come from that how big your muscles are determines how strong you are, and why it is connected with looking good. ... —gianrobberts01.blogspot.com

2012 This is the Line and possession with Self forgiveness.

In my mind I have created right and wrong, good and bad, instead of what is best for all life in all ways. Through this judgment in my mind as what is good and what is bad I have created a line, a invisible line that only exists in my mind. This line has two sides, one... —gianrobberts01.blogspot.com

Oil and the situation 101 basics.

Fossil fuels took up to 5 million years to become what we consume in 0ne year. The modern way of life is dependent on this fossilized sunlight in all we do, from plastic to turning on your light. Since 1860 geologist have discovered over two trillion barrels of oil ... —gianrobberts01.blogspot.com

My Near Death Experience and the tunnel.

When I was eight years old, I went on vacation with my family, we went from Johannesburg to Cape town, on the way to cape town we had plenty of stops and eventually had to sleep over somewhere at a Bed and Breakfast. It is a twelve hour drive and depending on the season it is... —gianrobberts01.blogspot.com