Member since July 2011.
My name is Jessica Nicole Smith, I'm 18, right now within this moment I'm in the process of re-birthing myself as life through the Desteni tools of self-forgiveness/self-honesty.
This is a continuation to Day 78: I Need Stability In My Life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually be relieved/relaxed and at ease when/as I am having trouble making a choice/decision to live that what will bring about a change that is best ... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 77: Dirty Little Family Secrets The most crucial/important part/aspect I am realizing within/as the family point is that I've allowed myself to completely give into/as my mind when/as I am facing my family - because it's as though I have created... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
Okay, so - I am starting to realize how I am completely convolting the family point that I am currently walking as an excuse/justification to not walk everything that I must walk - because looking at my previous blog, I was in essence not assisting/supporting myself - but, ... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
So - I have been allowing one mental-breakdown, after another - because I am experiencing the family point as something that has taken the Life right out of me. Because I experiece myself as, 'having to deal with my family's reactions' (including myself) to the point that ... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
~Picture of me sitting at my computer, writing out points that I am not integrating to the best of my ability. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought as image of me sitting at my computer, writing out points that I am not integrating to the best of my... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
Death found an author writing his life.. Designed & done on stone by E. Hull. Printed by C. Hullmandel. London, Dec. 1827. ihm.nlm.nih.gov/luna/servlet/detail/NLMNLM~1~1~101393235~... read 'Death's Ramble' - a poem by Thomas Hood that these images were drawn for or inspired by... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
~Picture of me writing out looooooong points with a frown on my face, jumping from one point to another. ~Picture of me writing out shooooort points with a frown on my face. ~Picture of me sitting at the computer, comparing myself to all the other Destonian's writings ~Picture... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 71: Writing Is Hard (Or Is It?) ~Picture of me writing out looooooong points with a frown on my face, jumping from one point to another. ~Picture of me writing out shooooort points with a frown on my face. ~Picture of me sitting at the computer, c... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
Okay, so - I've been having a lot of resistance to writing because I am quite self-aware that I am not changing in fact because I see/realize/understand it's because my current structure of writing is all over the place - not from the perspective of me judging my writings, ... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 69: A LIFE WORTH LIVING... I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret/pick up first by/through my Parents how/why they wanted/desired me to mold/shape myself to be and become a winner in this world/reality because I h... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 68: I Fear Change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that “reaching my potential” must imply that I must go outside myself and do something that society considers to be good/right/successful ... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 67: Don't Rock The Boat I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear self-realization because I am unconsciously placing/projecting all these pre-conceived ideals and because of this I have allowed myself to compromise/sabot... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 66: When the Door of Opportunity Opens I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I am in fact assisting/supporting myself by/through not living a moment/breath/chance/opportunity to my fullest p... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 65: Admit It - You Can't Hear I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when/as the door of opportunity precedes itself to limit/enslave myself, especially and specifically within the boundaries of someone presenting a practic... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 64: Choosing To Live In Fear The thought that I have had is a person brining forth a point that needs/requires change/direction, and I see myself very little in comparison. Thus, it's quite fascinating how I've placed/projected myself as infer... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 63: When Our Power Is Gone Walking the FEAR Dimensions of The Taking It Personally Character I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate/experience/react as being less than/inferior/stupid to/towards someone/somet... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 62: I Am Going Through a Personality Realization Walking FEAR Dimensions of The Taking It Personally Character I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when/as the moment/breath/chance/opp... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 61: Taking Things A Little Too Personally? Walking FEAR Dimensions of The Taking It Personally Character I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/diminish myself in a moment/breath/chance/opportunity that presents itsel... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
Taking It Personally Character - Walking the Dimensions FEAR Dimension - The most prominent fear I experience in relation to the Taking It Personally Character, is when/as someone is pin-pointing something that needs/requires change/direction, I immediately/instantaneously... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 59: My Own Worst Enemy I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/diminish who I am, to the point that I will react in guilt/shame/regret, in this I've allowed myself to actually mind-project who I am/have become as inferio... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 58: STOP! In The Name Of LIFE I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when/as I am in the moment/chance/breath/opportunity that is here, lie to myself, because I've allowed myself to search/find/seek/reach out for a ME/charac... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation Day 57: Searching For Myself, Back Later. Leave a Msg I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie relentlessly, purposely/deliberately for myself to never actually realize/understand/investigate how/why I have done everything in my... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try/attain/attempt to search for a ME that felt real/honest/authentic within and as myself because I have always molded/shaped myself over a thorough period of time to self-create this idea/belief/perception/assump... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 55: How to Stop Judging Yourself and Others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suddenly/out of nowhere participate and experience myself as self-conscious/self-aware of who I am/have become in the moment/breath/chance/opp... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 54: Little Miss Judgmental I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suddenly/out of nowhere be/become self-conscious about who I am/what character I am presenting in the moment, because I am self-judging myself within and as t... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 53: STOP JUDGING ME! I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to someone/something because I assume/perceive/think/believe that I am being dissected/analyzed/judged - in this I take what I am reacting too very personal, ... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 52: I'm Wasting My Life Away Okay, so - I'm now starting to understand just how much I judge myself when/as I am surrounded by/through people - because school is really allowing me to realize how much I've been judging myself in my Life - though I... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 51: THE USEFULNESS OF USELESSNESS I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe and perceive that I am actually already living/have always been living because of looking at my entire belief/idea/perception/assumption... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 50: I May Be Living Someone Else's Life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that everything is completely useless - because I have allowed MYSELF to be/become uselessness to the extent that no... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to Day 49: Who Needs A Reminder to Actually Live? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume/perceive that I need/require someone/something t o tell me how to live my life - because I've forgotten what it actually means to be here... —jessicasjourneytonothingness.blogspot.com
