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Cleaning the dishes is something I tend to put off. I put it off until I have nothing clean to put food on. After the day is almost done I have a small pile of dishes and think to myself "oh I should clean those dishes so they don't start to pile up but I don't feel like doing... —johnathanjourney.blogspot.com
This is a continuation: Day 92: My beef with education and academic teachers [Part One] and Day 92: My beef with education and academic teachers [Part One] Continuing with my "beef with education and academic teachers". Looking back on my experience while in middle and high s... —johnathanjourney.blogspot.com
This is a continuation: Day 92: My beef with education and academic teachers [Part One] I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that this class is about learning and explaining what the philosophers views are we were assigned to read. I forg... —johnathanjourney.blogspot.com
So I am going to start investigating my early experiences of Love and relationships up to this very day. There is quite a bit to go through so I am going to start here with my earliest experience of when I thought I was in Love. My experience with love goes back to when I was... —johnathanjourney.blogspot.com
So here I am, starting my journey to life. I don't feel ready to do this. A funny thing is when I first started to post on the desteni forum I said the exact same thing "I don't feel ready" to write/share. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel not ready ... —johnsjourny.blogspot.com
Here I am discussing how the want/desire of the approval/acceptance of others is a point of fear. www.desteni.org www.destonians.com www.eqafe.com —youtube.com
here I am discussing how the mind can gossip just like our mouths gossip Life Coaching available at http://www.desteniiprocess.org Check out the forum: http://www.desteni.org —youtube.com
Discussing my fear of playing music/performing in front of an audience —youtube.com
Having children. Its interesting how we are programmed to think that having a family and kids is WHAT we are supposed to do. This is what my family thinks. My cousin is in her mid-30s and is now pregnant. For years and years my family kept saying to her in a joking way, "Your ... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
It is interesting how people react to things. I have been sharing photos of the abuse that religion causes. Pictures of the pope, the bible, and shit like that. I post quotes I come across from Bernard speaking sometimes. Lately my cousins and brother-in-law and his friends ha... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
Talking about holding onto the memory of being arrested. Desteni is a group of people that thoroughly research and investigate the essence of what it means to be a responsible human being in this world as it currently exists. We present solutions that Everyone can apply... —youtube.com
Self-Intimacy is something that I fear. I am afraid of losing what/who I am and have become. I fear change because I don't know what I will become if I become self-intimate. What the fuck is this? LOL! Why do I fear becoming self-intimate? I am afraid of losing the energetic ... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
Something interesting happened the other day in jazz band. This is an email I sent my teacher who I take lessons from. The X1,X2, X3, and X4 represent humans, I am not listing their names. " I just wanted to make you aware of something. I quit jazz band last semester becaus... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
I have always felt sorry for my dad because of his childhood and how his parents have abandonded him. And the point the my dad's dad was an emotional abusive alcoholic. I feel sorry for him but I am really only feeling sorry for myself. I feel guilty. When I feel sorry for my ... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
Discussing how my body is supporting me —youtube.com
The physical body is very supportive. Throughout my day I notice how my body will change when I come across certain people or situations. My physical body has shown me a lot. During situations I don't like, or being around people I don't like, shows me to myself. It is as i... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
I am taking music business this semester and I have learned something very interesting today while in class. The song "Happy Birthday" makes over 1 million dollars a year. If the song is played in a public place with a big audience or the news films someone being sang happy ... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
I have shaved my hair again. I shaved it last week and decided to do it again today. My 3rd time of shaving my hair so far. I have always buzzed my hair on and off throughout my life. It has always felt normal to have my hair buzzed. Now, I have decided to shave my hair. I... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
What a journey this has been so far. The journey of self-investigation through writing and vlogging. This is something that just came up within me so I wanted to write. I have learned a lot about myself so far in this process. It is as how many have said it, "it's like peeling... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
Whitney Houston has died yet people die everyday. Desteni is a group of people that thoroughly research and investigate the essence of what it means to be a responsible human being in this world as it currently exists. We present solutions that Everyone can apply here a... —youtube.com
Losing my wallet. This happened about 3 or 4 months ago. I lost my wallet and became lost. I didn't know what to do. I didn't have money for cigarettes or alcohol or food. I became a complete hermit. So, sleeping was what I did with my time during those 4 days without money.... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
wanting change automatically instead of walking through it in space and time. —youtube.com
Changing is something that I have always wanted to do and I almost always put it off. Changing as in ways of habits and thinking or anything. A feeling comes up within me like "I want to change this" and I end up focusing on the 'change' instead of the actual living. This chan... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
There are some people that I don't like or like to be around. I just don't like to be around certain people. I have noticed some strange stuff lately regards to this 'not liking'. If I am around someone I don't like I will usually not exactly pay attention to them. I will avoi... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
So it's the 2nd week of school. I am becoming more aware of my reactions and tendencies of going into the mind. Sometimes I notice that thoughts can cause certain feelings, lately pain in the body. I noticed in improv this morning that my body was stiffening up. This is relate... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
a brief description of how I heard the desteni message —youtube.com
My father is a preacher. I grew up in this. He has preached for baptist, and United Church of Christ dominations. So... I was raised as a Christian. I honestly slept more often in church than stayed awake. It was something I looked forward to actually. When the service started... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
I got this in a email from one of my teachers, | | | | V If I were you, I would type this out (see below) and put it in your horn case. Read it every morning. Let... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
talking about separation with teachers Life Coaching - http://www.desteniiprocess.com Also visit www.desteni.org www.destonians.com www.equalmoney.org —youtube.com
Today was the first day of classes and I have one more class today but I have already noticed something about my day. My voice changes depending on the people I am around. I had to get shit finalized with classes and had to deal with people in authority. Like talking to them a... —johnathanexposed.blogspot.com
