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Anxiety as a fear is specific, as this fear is specific in relation of one mind, projections and connections as relationships within and without, as anxiety, represents fear of one own illusion. I forgive to myself that I have accepted and allowed to myself ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Many years ago, I placed myself into a situation where fear of future, as a projection of no ability to pay for stuff I had to pay took place, and I experienced anxiety within me, terrorizing myself with this experience and over some period of time, this anxiety has been suppr... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
As I started to realize years ago what thoughts really are, as deception of self, as that what has been programmed and created to enslave human being, and therefore myself, I became interested of living without a thoughts within me, and thus I start to apply breathing, self fo... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I believed others should appreciate me, respect or value me, not realizing that I believed in this because I separated from myself and thus I searched and seek those which will possible do so, even not able to recognize I am doing this. I forgot to respect a... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Many times I thought that to express myself different way than calmness and kindness is bad, evil or something which I should not do, as I perceived only the way of communication through this point as valid, but this is not so. It was just my own self dishonesty, my own self d... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Last days, I started to experience various multiple points, and the major one is my inner anger towards myself because I trusted to the system, because I trusted the mind, my mind and the mind of others. I realized that nothing is possible to be trusted, and... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
After specific scenario I faced with my flat mate, I experienced backchat as my mind telling towards people how people are idiots, specifically as the point of their blindness, as no actual understanding even what they speak, and this was because of point of anger and blame di... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
The presence of me, as awareness of everything which exists as me, no separation, nothing just me as experience and existence of myself in equality and oneness of me as who I really am, this is the realization I came through and the self judgment of me was so extreme, I experi... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I liked to dance quite lot, I liked to dance for hours and tiredness has not been the point to stop me from dancing, I enjoyed the movements and I enjoyed the sound. I forgot that those movements have been based on energy experience I created within me towards the sound, place... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I experienced hard pain right in the center of my chest, pressure, even not allowing me to breathe, and within in breath pain raised and pain while breathing became so unpleasant. I saw the cause of this pain, as relationship I created within me towards me, ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I was in discussion with friend, and as many times I take the lead of topics we speak about, I became sometimes speaking like “too much“. Within this, I noticed the change in behavior of my friend and that friend became quit, silent and not wanting to speak about anything. ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
As I was born to this world, and grow up and observed what is around me, many orders, restrictions and commands I heard as a points from those which thought they know what it means to educate child. They was wrong as they had no idea what they spoke to me an... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Obviously, during my “life time” I defined myself as a male, just purely because of design of my body, and this seeing me as a male became my direction and my living, without any understanding that I just made ideas, believes, projections about me, as what it means to be a mal... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
The point of EGO, and energy movement, is point of my life, as I existed as this EGO always. And to move just as me as breath, that’s the journey out of the ego. Today, when I get on the bus, I made just two steps inside, and I looked on a girl on left side,... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
The positive blind me to see what is part of myself as negative, the negative shows me what I became and why. The positive directs me away from me, the negative destroy and dishonor me. The positive, delude me and trap into illusions, nega... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
The point of participating on anyone feelings, emotions is bullshit and the same way within and as me. If I directly participate on any energy experiences of anyone, in this I am not supporting them but enslaving in and as the mind, as I am validating of one emotions and valid... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I realized interesting point, in regards of balancing and stabilizing myself as presence of me within this world. The moment I accept myself to balance me through feelings and emotions as polarity of other, I am fucked and this is not real balance and not r... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Perception of freedom, to be free or free choice, is absolutely misunderstood and misinterpreted, and in any means, I am not able to say that I am free. For me, to be free means, that I decide who I am, what I do, why I do, without any thought in my head, wi... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I realized interesting point, and that is fear of sound, of specific sounds I created within me, and this fear is based on self judgment, or perception of myself doing something bad, or when I attended school, when I was not prepared in some subject, and thus I feared what wil... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I became living in and as polarity of places as dark – Light, and this was because when I was a child, I liked to hide myself into a bad, where I did that place like tent, and inside was darkness and I liked and enjoyed that darkness, as only me was there and no one could go i... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Money and the usage of money, became the most misunderstood point within my life, and usage of money real horror in my life. Due to the lack of education from my parents, where religion brainwashing was really extensive, thus I created really terrible perception of money and m... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Within my process, I was falling many times, because I wanted to stand up because of comparison, information and knowledge and thus through this knowing wanting to change myself and let go the past as creation of me as a program. Many times I has been asking... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
By following the though I am saying: My mind tell me what I should do and I will proceed because you are my god and I will hear you, your wish is my command, keep me trapped and enslaved. By reacting by positive feelings I am saying: The energy I experience ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I walked recently my way at the morning, and because I was not awaken completely and I was bit in a hurry thus I forgot my breath just for few moments and thus I became walking in my mind as looking into the future as projection of several hours what I will do, how I will get ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
Many times I have been solving within me the points related to my sexuality, and interestingly the definition of sex, sexuality, or sexual desires, projections, was and is intertwined with many other points, in meaning, how I see myself as a male and how I see females, how I e... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I forgot in my life that I am the flesh as body living here, I forgot myself as body and I forgot expressing myself as physical body, as I learned and teach myself to express myself and live myself according others I observed around me. I forgot myself as w... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I realized interesting point, this is like being scared, or frightened if I do not experience nothing, thus this is like wanting to experience something thus create within and as me frightening that I experience nothing and how come nothing is within me, thus by creating this ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
The movement in nature, around trees, the ways in forest, the walking, smell of the forest, with the humidity of the air, this all I had tendency to perceive as positive and thus like to be in forest, walk there, move and spend time, or to try to find some mushrooms, and from ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I realized interesting point, that within my eye movement, I can see what my program is, how I look and see the world outside, what are the points I seek and look one, how I move with my eyes, how often I blink with me eyes, which pictures I see with my eyes, how I search for ... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
I lived many relationships and each one has been projection of me towards myself, because I separated from me and thus I created idea and believe what and who I am and within this forgave myself as life but rather followed this ideas. Interestingly, as I st... —juraj-kess.blogspot.com
