Member since August 2010.

Bio

I'm a human being before anything else, that would not like to support abuse and would like to prove that to myself in every moment. This is the proof, as a living example to myself that I am in-fact standing for a world where everyone may have the freedom to push their self-expression to the greatest potential. If all is not free as one and equal, none are free, and therefore freedom does not exist

Having fun freeing myself at Desteni, to see and hear for myself what Desteni has shared

Kasper Kwan

Practical Usage of Equality Equation

-And obviously how you use it to what's best for you - which will lead to what is best for all Part 2 of a mini-series as response to vlog suggestion by DesteniProductions If you have not watched this mini-series, and is unfamiliar with 'process', I suggest doing so - it ... —youtube.com

How To Live The Bible: Equality Exposed

-How you use [the equality equation] to establish what is best for all and what is not best for all. Part 1 of a mini-series as response to vlog suggestion by DesteniProductions "Judge not, lest ye be judged." Sharing my current perspective of how equality can actually... —youtube.com

'I'm Just Not Good-Enough!' Syndrome

Speaking about my experience related to self-defeat as self destroying self through severe self-criticism, past patterns I have 'accumulated', and then ending on a simple yet effective statement to 'confirm' whether I am self-honest or self-dishonest. —youtube.com

Breathing Is Important and Refreshing

Speaking about my day, a point on breathing , an observation of other people's attitude toward me, and a perspective on the delusional value placed on hair. It was actually I that changed, which 'changed' my experience of other people. Fascinating how I 'blamed' this chang... —youtube.com

Honesty Will Kill You: SELF-Honesty Please

Speaking about how the mechanisms that 'motivate' people are exactly identical, self-judgment, and an awesome experience of how SELF-honesty will never 'result' in an 'outcome' where either person is compromised. No compromise please. I prefer a 'conversation', not an 'argum... —youtube.com

Self-Direction Is Here: Do Not Take It For Granted

Starting again Rather than 'feel' an 'obligation' to 'self-judgmentally beat-myself-up', I 'choose' to be self-honest and 'learn-from' this fall. —youtube.com

Social Anxiety is Made, Not Born-into Part 2

Self-exploration and self-inquiry into the memories and assumptions I have accepted and allowed to be 'socially anxious'. I was startled by what I 'found'. I allowed and accepted myself to identify myself in the 'startled' reaction I generated within myself through my min... —youtube.com

Social Anxiety is Made, Not Born-into Part 1

Self-exploration and self-inquiry into the memories and assumptions I have accepted and allowed to be 'socially anxious'. I was startled by what I 'found'. I allowed and accepted myself to identify myself in the 'startled' reaction I generated within myself through my min... —youtube.com

Ambition is Useless

Been there, done that - don't go there. Striving ambitiously, or indulgently dreaming will lead to inaction. The simple fact is: if I do not change = nothing will change. How do I change? Actual change = actions done differently to what I am used to. Simple common sense... —youtube.com

Holding Back

Applying myself in every moment is the key. There is no automation in that equation Speaking about points of self-support in dealing with rampant thoughts, feelings and emotions, and a perspective on 'letting go' of grogginess when waking up from deat- sleep. Unexplaine... —youtube.com

Grown-up Things Are No Good

Speaking about where I am currently in my process: not pretty to say the least. Living physically here is...simple. Always simplicity —youtube.com

The Danger of Feeling Important

Speaking about today's examples that ultimately relate to the point of 'placing' myself in a 'position of 'inferiority'/'superiority', namely walking with a bald head in public, and secret wars waged between a fellow human. Want to know what kind of 'secret war'? Watch the v... —youtube.com

Procrastination Sucks: Why Do I Love It?

Because I feel like it. Instead of trusting me here within and as breath, in the moment of procrastination I trust my moods more than the actual living fact that I am here: it is proven within every single breath I apply myself in and as. No matter what the 'subject' I am '... —youtube.com

Vlog: Minor Sharings

Speaking about how I notice myself speaking differently with friends, and exploring the word 'control'. Not much to speak on that point though. Daily vlogging is fascinating - I re-did today's vlog four times, because the first three times I clearly noticed myself speaking... —youtube.com

Self-Honesty Is The Key

Speaking about my perspectives on how to apply self-honesty, and a few other points. Fascinating how I made this vlog 'with ease', meaning I had less thoughts while doing this vlog. Speaking of 'thinking while vlogging', I often notice myself 'participating' in many thoug... —youtube.com

Be Forgiving of Failure: Or Else It Will Not Forgive You

I forgive myself as living self-forgiveness; I forgive myself in every moment, and in doing so 'gift' myself the 'opportunity' to live here. If I 'do-not admit' my own 'failures' to myself, I only 'enslave' and 'entrap' me to repeat and compound the same pattern until I eit... —youtube.com

Fear/Anxiety Toward the Education System Begone!

Further exploration into procrastination and school: At the moment I feel 'uncertain' about the future of my academic career, and I insist on projecting worst-case scenarios within me, 'being-possessed' by the 'fear and anxiety of it, resulting in 'lethargy' and 'tiredness' an... —youtube.com

Vlog: Update + Failure as Self-Support

Speaking about shaving head and what it can represent, vloggin outside, failure as self-support, a point on walking process, and the me-dog relationship; the noticeable change in her attitude towards me. N.B. shaven head = PART OF the living proof of standing up for Equalit... —youtube.com

Time-Looping In Compulsive Speculation/Observation

The more vlogs I make for myself, the more I see how I never needed to consider these 'failure' moments so much: the solution as process is damned simple: remain here. Yet I allow and accept myself to insist on thinking of 'future projections that ultimately do not make me ... —youtube.com

It's Great To Start Over

To be self-effective, I start over in every moment in every breath. I ask specific, self-directive, self-assisting questions about what I am doing in this moment here. The simplicity of here is in fully participating as a participant with all physical interaction. And all o... —youtube.com

Practical Example: Verbal Abuse as Conversation.wmv

Speaking about a conversation I had with my mother, and what my spoken interaction revealed to me about me. —youtube.com

Flag Point: How Do I Stop Being a Mind Addict? Part 2

Speaking about how I experience myself in my process, and the lessons I've learnt from 'falling' and 'failing'. I do not accept and allow myself to be defined by this failure - failure is an opportunity to uncover more of how I work as a personality. Documenting 'high' and ... —youtube.com

Flag Point: How Do I Stop Being a Mind Addict? Part 1

Speaking about how I experience myself in my process, and the lessons I've learnt from 'falling' and 'failing'. I do not accept and allow myself to be defined by this failure - failure is an opportunity to uncover more of how I work as a personality. Documenting 'high' a... —youtube.com

Not Writing: Self-Writing For Self-Support

Speaking about experiences I had about writing, and more points that arose today. One realisation that I implied but had not spoken about is that I am not supporting myself when I merely speak about self-insights I already have - I really only support myself when I direct m... —youtube.com

Practical Example: Cleverness of Mind To Control Host (That's You!)

Also speaking about a perspective on the meaning of self-responsibility, and the censor as personality that *beep* what people are actually saying. —youtube.com

Shell-Shock from Failure-Shock: Self-Forgive IMMEDIATELY

Speaking about the aftereffects of seeing myself deliberately create self-dishonesty by placing attention on a thought and not 'who I am' here, failure as a step forward in process, my separation as a male with a female reflected in an 'everyday' event, the 'structure/'skeleto... —youtube.com

Stop Focusing on What's Happening - Start Focusing on Yourself

Talking about a point of self-dishonesty that resulted in a 'confusing-conflict' play-out in me, and more lol I got startled by the new experience I had. Implied in being startled = still basing myself on memory. It's good that I see that. I will not fall when faced... —youtube.com

More Of My Experiences With Porn

I made this because on this day, I allowed and accepted myself to be 'seduced' by the 'idea' of gaining the 'best-energetic-experience' through watching porn. Yet to completely speak about my experience, I directed myself in 'real-time' stopping the energetic 'orgasmic' ex... —youtube.com

What Does Self-Honesty Feel Like?

Speaking about living gratefulness, and a point about self-honesty and what it means in practical living action Bella is a person that has assisted me in pushing myself to be self-honest and face myself: link to the piece of writing here: Idolisation as 'Motivational ... —youtube.com

Exposing Self-Judgment Within Myself: Judgment Day is Here

I did not push through this point, therefore I take another approach: flag the point specifically and now writing self-corrective statements: to script the 'way' I am going to direct myself to correct myself. This vlog was done before 'seeing' that self-corrective statement... —youtube.com