Member since August 2012.

Kim S

Day 157 - Horrah it's Pay Day!

Today was pay day. Now after a longer than normal month in that it was five week month and struggling to make ends meet on our budget, we finally got paid. The relief that I experienced and the positive feeling that I had when I saw the money in the account was so cool. I sa... —

Day 156 - Who am I with Men

What the last couple of days have highlighted to me is who I am with men in my life. After me attempting to defend myself and what I am walking regarding process has made me see who I am with them and how easily at times my buttons will be pushed to keep me in what I see as a... —

Day 155 - Screw You Lot - You Don't Have a Clue!

In the last 24 hours two people have inferred that I am a freak, that I have freaky friends and go on to freaky websites and belong to a weird cult like group...Now I am faced with this from time to time, but for some reason these two particular people are people that I have t... —

Day 154 - Watching TV.

Today I was watching a show that is very popular here..I admit I enjoy watching the show as it is pretty entertaining as its a bunch of celebrities that are air lifted into the jungle for a few weeks with no possessions and they have to do tasks and trials for their food. So... —

Day 153 - Judgemental Back Chat

Today I experienced myself as back chat in that it was more extensive than usual. Judgement towards myself mainly. So I won't go into much detail here. I'll just get into the self forgiveness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself harshly w... —

Day 152 - Replaying a Conversation

Today I experienced myself as backchat and having a conversation in my own mind about a conversation I had a couple of days ago with a couple of people. I played it out in what was said and then I judged myself to see if I could have said things differently. Did I upset the ... —

Day 151 - Are we truly intelligent? Continued

This is a continuation from my blog of yesterday. Are we truly intelligent? We have as a species casually gone about our business in our own little bubbles of existence with little or... —

Day 150 - Are we truly intellegent?

What makes us as a human species think that we are the most intelligent life form? The key is in the word THINK. As children we are reliant on our parents to think on our behalf, as our brains and senses are forming. But what is inherently flawed in this, is that our parents... —

Day 149 - Cat amongst the Pigeons

My Mother used to use this saying " To put the Cat amongst the Pigeons" to stir things up and create a fuss or just generally be bloody minded and wind people up for the sake of getting a reaction. I found myself doing this today, like some kind of devilment where I was talki... —

Day 148 - Slow Down!

Today I experienced myself as rushing within and as myself. I became aware of the fact that I am not aware of my breath in every moment. I have been busy with work and other daily activities and I am panicking and rushing to get them all done. By the evening I had experie... —

Day 147 - Reminiscing.

A record came on the radio today when I was on my way home from work, that for a moment took me back to a time over 10 years ago when I was involved with someone in relationship and I thought how I had moved away to be with them. This record took me back to a time when I was ... —

Day 146 - Revenge of the Ego.

The last few days I have been having turmoil within and as me I have been busy with work and other things so haven't been as dedicated to writing in every moment as I have been. During the day I have been experiencing myself as heavy and a little apathy has kicked in as resi... —

Day 145 - Superiority Character - Again!

At times I experience myself as frustrated or impatient with others that don't get the message of Equality and Oneness and within this I have back chat that goes something like this: How the fuck do they not get it? What is it going to take for them to see the error of their... —

Day 144 - Watching the News and Resistance to Writing.

Today, I was watching the news, With a focus on everything that is going on with Israel and Gaza. I found myself completely consumed with guilt and shame and fear. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as deep regret and fear of what ... —

Day 143 - Self Forgiveness for Being a Psychic - Walking the Journey to Life

This is a continuation on from day 142 - Self Forgiveness and Corrective Statements : I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as ove... —

Day 142 - Being A Psychic - Walking the Journey to Life in the Physical

In a chat with Sunette recently I ask if she finds that since she has become more aligned within and as existence it was easier for her to "read people" Sunette Spies: Understand, that - with the Portal that is the Physical Body - all of existence is here, equal and one in/as... —

Day 141 - Interesting Sleep In

Today I slept in when I was wide awake so I could have gotten up at the point that I woke. But it was cosy and the alarm still hadn't gone off at its usual time so I THOUGHT oh well i'll wait for the alarm. Now what was interesting is that I went back to sleep and was dream... —

Day 140 - Energy Junkie - Anxiety

Anxiety (also called angst or worry) is a psychological and physiological state characterized by somatic, emotional, cognitive, and behavioral components.[2] It is the displeasing feeling of fear and concern.[3] The root meaning of the word anxiety is 'to vex or trouble'; in e... —

Day 139 - Hiding Myself

I had the TV on today when I got in from work, whilst checking my emails on my phone. An advert came on that caught my eye and it was an advert about how if one text someones name, dob and town to a certain number for £1.50 a minute they can find out information about them. ... —

Day 138 - I Don't Know How to Speak to Children

I became aware today of something that I haven't noticed before. I find myself as anxious and a little afraid of speaking to children. One of my Nieces is only five and I find myself being nervous of speaking to her, because mostly I don't want to say or do something that ... —

Day 137 - Jim'll Fix it for YOU.

Recently there has been a lot of controversy about a deceased well known TV and Radio personality Jimmy Saville being a paedophile. Now one of the big wigs in the BBC has resigned in a great deal of shame because of how the BBC have been conducting themselves during the enqui... —

Day 136 - Continuation of We are what we eat, or so we are told!

For context please see Day 135 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pre occupy myself in my mind obsessing about my size and how I need to be a certain w... —

Day 134 - Hard on myself!

What is best for all life? I have noticed something that is at the very core of all of my behaviour and that is shame and regret. But more so than this is the 'being overly hard on myself character' which Christine Hansen accurately pointed out when she did my numbers recen... —

Day 133 - Oh Yeah Baby - I'am a dancer!

Listening to some 'old skool tunes' earlier on the radio on my way to work. I remembered how I used to dance and go crazy on the dance floor I used to really enjoy clubbing/disco's and in fact just bouncing around the lounge on my own, and I got quite a reputation for ... —

Day 132- Enough - Just fucking stop already!!!

The shop that I work in two and a half days a week have two turtles in a tank. Now these turtles have been part of the shop for few years now and generally have been quite ok in a fair size tank. Lately they have started to fight, in that the bigger one picks on and torments... —

Day 131 - Move it!

Today I found myself not wanting to get up, it was warm and cosy and I was in my mind recalling the previous days events. I had at least 7 hours sleep already. I went into the mind and started to recall a couple of things that happened and then put my own spin on them. I mad... —

Day 130 - Superiority Character

Superiority character. I have worked on this character before - but noticed that it came up a little again yesterday and today. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as idiots and stupid because they aren't interested in Equal Money ... —

Day 129 - Mis placed trust!

A situation came up today that in a moment I saw myself as doubting someone that I know well as letting me down. I can also see that I am facing the consequence of something that came up a few days ago that I didn't face there and then and if I had a conversation with this per... —

Day 128 - What if!

Today I woke up and experienced myself as fear a bit. Now how to explain this; A sense of what I am doing is not going to be enough? Maybe I have left a back door in the mind open somewhere and I will be caught out, maybe I won't cover every angle fully and do my self f... —

Day 127 - Forgive them Father for they know not what they do. Cont...

For context see day 126 - Forgive them father for they know not what they do. Watching the movie King of King's taught me about emotions and feelings amongst other things. Feelings of love and tenderness and emotions of fear and sadness and a belief in a power outside o... —