Member since December 2011.
I started listening to metal in 2002, when I was still in primary school. It all began when my school-mate lent me "Kill 'Em All" album by Metallica. I got deeply impressed by that music and then started to listen further Metallica's albums and other metal bands like Motorhead... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have talked out the things that I shouldn't have to my grandmother. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the feeling of depression and anger in connection with talking out. I forgive myself for accep... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ever deny, displace or abdicate my self-responsibility. When and as I notice myself starting to abdicate my self-responsibility or displace my self-responsibility which happens mostly when I am not feeling fine, having a di... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be depressed and angry on myself because of participating in this pattern of fucking up everything in the end over and over again. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to repeat this pattern of fucking up ever... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be honest from a starting-point of manipulation, because I am honest so that other people will see me as a ‘good person’, realizing that the difference between self-honesty and honesty is the starting point. Where honesty i... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
In my high school period I was not an honest person at all, I was living in a lie, hiding things, did not give honesty any real value, did not care if I was telling the truth or not and did not care what people will think about me. Later then, after this high school period whe... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to starting to swear when being angry as an expression of self when being angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to having learned this patterns of swearing when being angry from my friends/schoolmates and t... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
My first experience with the word 'love' was back in 2002 when I was in the 8th class of primary school. I had my eyes on the girl from the 7th class and – what was the most fascinating – I had the information from my class-mate that this same girl in interested in me. So – wh... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hang out with the people that were not supportive for me and my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be naive and blindly following the people that were not supportive for me and my life. I forgive my... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be depressed because of the realization that I create this mental hell myself and at this stage not being able to control it/stop it/remove it. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the mental hell w... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the experiencing of more than one person bullying me with fear and situation of only one person bullying me with less or maybe even no fear, because if I put myself in the role of the person who is bullying, I would... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I was bullied on the street years back, when I was still in the primary school. I was headed home after the training of basketball and on the way two people stopped me on the street and wanted to have a handy phone from me. I said that I don't have the handy phone with me (and... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with nervousness when waiting of any kind and thus get the feeling everytime I wait that this waiting would last forever and in this case I made a connection between just listening to that unkown situation and waiting... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid that I will be exposed to too many distractions and thus be absorbed in panic attack/shock/nervous breakdown, which is connected to the fear of losing safety and the fear of death, which are both in fact fear of l... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
My last encounter with the word adrenaline was somewhere back in 2011. I was lying in bed in bedroom and the bell ringed at the door. My parents answered and I heard that they were having a conversation and the conversation lasted for like five minutes already and I got that f... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blog less.I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to percieve blogging less as a defeat. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to come to the wrong conclusions about my blogging activity.I forgive my... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I realise that in human physical body everything is connected and this connection is based on the prana energy field, in fact the whole body being connected through 'meridians' also known as 'nadiis' and through these Life energy called prana/qui/chi flows and supplies the bod... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself having no ideas for blogging when fucked up. When and as I notice myself drowning in the unpleasant state, lacking the ideas for blogging, I stop, I breathe.I realise that when not in the best condition there exist the great o... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself that my initial reaction to every new/unknown situation is nervousness, fear and negative back chat. When and as I notice myself reacting to some situation with nervousness, fear or back chat, I stop, I breathe.I realise that ... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be unsatisfied because it seems to me that I will have no more ideas for blogging. When and as I notice myself being unsatisfied because of any reason, I stop, I breathe. I realise that my mind is the inner universe of gran... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Self’s allocation point: I have been living this word like a neutral word, having no personal experience with this word until my problems with mental health began, this was in 2007 and having the real encounter with full meaning of this word after and at a nervous breakdown, t... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
I must say that I have more or less managed to overcome the fear mindfucks from my mind. There were pretty much of them, I wrote 3 blogs on that topic and it would be too long to all paste it here, so I will provide only the links to those blogs: Fears, fears, fears (Part One,... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Self’s allocation point: I have been living this word like a neutral word, having no personal experience with this word until my problems with mental health began, that was in 2007 and having the real encounter with full meaning of this word after the nervous breakdown, that i... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
My first serious encounter with the word 'death' was back in 2000 when my uncle died. I can still remember when the doctor called from the hospital, saying that my uncle was 'in very bad condition', which in fact meant that he died. When I heard the news about my uncle dying I... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Note: I am writing in English now my Journey to Life blog. I decided for this because no one read my blogs in Slovene and thus I had no feedback to my writings. I will miss the comfort of writing in my mother language, but I believe that I will accustom fast to writing in E... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Odpustim si, da sem sprejel in si dovolil, da sem čustveno odvisen od ljudi, ki so mi blizu, predvsem svoje mame.Kadar opazim in se zavem, da si ustvarjam občutke čustvene navezanosti/odvisnosti, se ustavim in diham. Zavedam se, da je vsaka odvisnost napačna in nepotrebna, saj... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Obvezujem se, da ne bom obupal nad samim sabo. Še naprej si bom izpisoval svoja razmišljanja, ugotovitve, predvsem pa obremenilne vsebine, prakticiral bom samo-odpuščanje za vse moje napake in nevšečnosti ter delal korekcije ter jih nato zavestno živel po najboljših močeh v vs... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Odpustim si, da sem sprejel in si dovolil, da sem postal depresiven zaradi razmišljanja, da ne moram normalno funkcionirati brez zdravil.Kadar opazim in se zavem, da si ustvarjam občutke depresije zaradi nekega ramišljanja, se ustavim in diham.Zavedam se, da zdravila, ki jih j... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Obvezujem se, da bom sprejemal destenijevsko filozofijo skozi zdrav razum. Odpustim si, da sem sprejel in si dovolil, da sem postal nezadovoljen, ker sem si pozabil beležiti dnevno doživljanje v svoj zvezek. Kadar opazim in se zavem, da si ustvarjam občutke nezadovoljstva, se... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
Zadovoljen sem, ker sem nekoliko napredoval z bloganjem, v smislu širitve 'Desteni' besednega zaklada.Zavedam se, da ne morem neposredno spremeniti fizičnega, temveč lahko na fizično posredno nekoliko vplivam tako, da spremenim psihično, in sicer preko moje osebne destonijske ... —lukanapotikzivljenju.blogspot.com
