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For further context and understanding in relation to what I am busy walking I suggest that you read: The Reasons Behind Anorexia - Part 2. Day 268. The Hunger Games - Day 289 You Do Not Want to Disappoint Anorexia, That Would Not Be Right - Day 290 How To Practically Move... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
For further context and understanding in relation to what I am busy walking I suggest that you read: The Reasons Behind Anorexia - Part 2. Day 268. The Hunger Games - Day 289 You Do Not Want to Disappoint Anorexia, That Would Not Be Right - Day 290 How To Practically Mov... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
"There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore." —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the ‘control’ that I am experiencing when and as I look at/examine/evaluate my physical appearance as my face and body-shape/size/form in the mirror and in this letting my perception of the reflecti... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and resist stopping the mirror-personality in where I am judging, examining and evaluating the reflection of my body-shape/size/form and face in the mirror and defining myself according to the opinions that I am ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear looking at the reflection of myself in the mirror after I have eaten something which I have defined as “having a high calorie-content” or after I have eaten, according to my definition/perception, a large amount ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not looking myself in the mirror due to the belief and idea that if I do not look myself in the mirror when I wake up then I do not know how to act/be/behave throughout that day, consequentially will feel ‘out of... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
This is the continuation to my previous blog-posts, if you have not yet read them I suggest you do so for further context; - Day 190. How The Mirror Controls My Life - Day 191. The Reflection in the Mirror Creates a Hell - Day 192. The Distorted Perception of an An... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to my previous blog-posts, if you have not yet read them I suggest you do so for further context; - Day 190. How The Mirror Controls My Life - Day 191. The Reflection in the Mirror Creates a Hell - Day 192. The Distorted Perception of an Anorexic ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to my previous blog-posts, if you have not yet read them I suggest you do so for further context; - Day 190. How The Mirror Controls My Life - Day 191. The Reflection in the Mirror Creates a Hell - Day 192. The Distorted Perception of an Ano... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to my previous blog-posts, if you have not yet read them I suggest you do so for further context; - Day 190. How The Mirror Controls My Life - Day 191. The Reflection in the Mirror Creates a Hell So now, let’s look ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to my previous blog-post, if you have not yet read that one I suggest you do so for further context; Day 190. How The Mirror Controls My Life When turning 12 years old and onwards I would form the ‘I hate my ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
In this blog-post and posts to come I will write about my MIRROR-PERSONALITY, which consists of several different characters, fears, imaginations, experiences, behaviors etc. I will start with investigating and writing about my past and the relationship I have had and formed t... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my internal perception of who I am is valid – that my self-definitions which I have created within the mind are real and who I am – not seeing or realizing that all of my self-definitions and se... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to comply with the experience of discomfort – which I created through giving value to opinions that consisted of and existed as self-judgments and self-definitions that aroused within and of the mind in relation to whom ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I suggest you read my previous blog-post for further context; Day 186. Being Uncomfortable With Who I am When and as I see that a perception or opinion of who I am arises within the mind which is based on self-judgment or self-definition – I stop and I breathe – I im... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am uncomfortable with and within myself as who I perceive myself to be – that I do not like myself as who I perceive myself to be – a perception that is based on self-judgments, defining mysel... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for all the school-years that I missed due to being forced to drop out of school when being too sick in anorexia – and in this living in regret now due to seeing ‘everything that I have missed’ and how ma... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that having a general education is more important than who I am, thinking that who I am and my right to life is determined by how educated I am and linking ‘being smart’ to ‘possessing knowledge and ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the experience of living a life in where I just am trying to manage, just trying to cope with my everyday life and seeing my ‘everyday life’ as just tasks upon tasks, just a pile of ‘must do’s’ – in this findi... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and become overwhelmed by the experience of meaninglessness in where I judge everything that I participate within in my physical reality as completely and entirely meaningless, useless and worthless within the... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
This is a continuation to my previous blog-post; Day 180. Don't Lose Control! I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge throwing up as wrong, shameful, bad and ‘prohibited’ – in this have created a fea... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am inferior to my own back-chat/internal conversations and thoughts – and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and powerlessness – letting go of... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
If you have not yet read my previous blog-post I suggest you do so for further context; Day 178. The Power of Illusions When and as the back-chat “I want to throw up” arises – I immediately stop and breathe – within this I prev... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
If you have not yet read my previous blog-posts I suggest you do so for further context; Day 176. I Must Throw up My Food Day 177. Why Girls Throw up Their Food For Beauty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that the back-... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
If you have not yet read my previous blog-post I suggest you do so for further context; Day 176. I Must Throw up My Food Trigger-Points: 1. When I have eaten something which I have once in the past/am now defining as ‘unhealthy’ – usually... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
In this post and posts to come I will walk through some points which I haven’t been able to actually SEE previously but am now becoming more aware of through having slowed myself down within my day-to-day-living with and as breath. So – I will firstly identify the points – I’l... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
If you have not yet read my two previous blog-posts I suggest you do so for further context; - Day 173. A Life Without Anorexia is Useless...? - Day 174. I Can Seeeee You Anorexia-Monster I realize that the reactions that has ... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
If you have not yet read my previous blog-post I suggest you do so for further context; Day 173. A Life Without Anorexia is Useless...? In this I realize that the reason for why all of these experiences has started to ‘boil up’ and seem so BIG now is both becaus... —malingunilla.blogspot.com
