Member since April 2008.

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Have been watching videos since the beginning, started to participate a bit after. Stopped for a relationship then joined back again mid 2010.

Paul Quessy

Day 324 - Fear of Letting go of Desires

When I look at letting go of all desire, letting go of all the time that I spend on desire there is a fear of letting go of all the desire, this fear is prominent when I take a look at letting go of searching the web and entertaining myself by doing so, I fear what I will do w... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 323 - Thinking about Desires

I've quickly come to realize that within walking slowing down or stopping these desires that I've been living within/as for quite some time without really applying myself in putting an end to the desires that stopping the thought processes about the desires is equally as impor... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 322 - "Freedom" Within the Mind

In the past few days, within applying myself in slowing down and stopping desires, there has been a large change in regards to my participation within the mind, well let me say there was at first. When I would go out for a cigarette or allow myself to entertain myself specific... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 321 - Separating the Experience of Desire

There has been a clear pattern as to when I fall within desire and that has been when/as I am within an experience of positivity or negativity and will then decide to go into desire to attempt to console myself within negativity or to make the experience of positivity better. ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 320 - Just One?

We all know this question, either from being parents or from when we were children ourselves. We would ask for just one more or just one of something that we were desiring in hopes that the limitation of ourselves to `only one` is a justifiable excuse to why we should be given... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 3 - Why do I Need Math?

In the math course that I am taking I had to ask myself where and how am I able to apply this math and why do I need this math if I am not going into a math program in university but a science program in university - and where in my life am I able to effectively use this infor... —adiabeticsjourneytolife.blogspot.ca

Day 319 - Strictness In Desire Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into a thought about a desire without second considerations of what I am actually participating in within/as the desire due to the accepted relationship with myself of giving into what I want without question or ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 318 - Who am I without Desire?

Since I started the Desteni Process I have not wanted to let go of desires nor self interest. My starting point has been something along the lines of `keeping my head above water` so to speak. I apply myself just enough to keep myself on track, I apply myself just enough to es... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 317 - Being Strict with Myself In Desires

I listened to the interview "When Desires Become Overwhelming" on Eqafe last night and there is a specific point that struck me while listening and that was the point of being strict with self when the energy of desire becomes quite vast and overwhelming - being strict to rema... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 316 - Negative Experiences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that all that I have been doing in regards to self interest and pursuit of happiness is due to an innate experience of negativity derived from the experience of myself in this life, and ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 315 - Abidcation of Self Responsibility in Negative Experiences

I am pausing for a moment walking myself in ego and the backchat that I've created wherein I create myself in specific situations to maintain my ego to take a look at myself in negative experiences and the influence that I've allowed the negative experiences to have on myself ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 314 - I Think Therefore I Am?

This is a continuation from Day 311 - Disappointment in the image of myself Day 312 - Creating Self Image through Thoughts and words Day 313 - Supporting Ego In thoughts as Words I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that within the conversat... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 313 - Supporting Ego In Thoughts as Words

This Post is a continuation from Day 311 - Disappointment in Self Image and Day 312 - Creating Self Image through Thoughts as Words I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to backchat about specific conversations that I have associated a self-righteousness or... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 312 - Creating Self Image Through Thoughts as Words

This is a continuation from the previous post Day 311 - Disappointment in the Image of Myself As I wrote before, In order to maintain the image of myself, I will create internal conversations based on a memory of my interaction with the person or situation previously and f... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 311 - Self Image, Disappointment and Positivity

When I am about to see someone that I know or go out to a place to meet friends, or meet people, or meet someone, or interact with someone, like buying food or cigarettes or whatever, I will converse in my mind about that which I am about to speak to the person, like thinking ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 310 - Hope and Faith within Decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that any decision that I've made based on the hope that I will later get to that which I am putting off within a decision, or hope that I will do what I need to do within the next decision has never in fac... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 2 - Should we Trust Nutrition Labels?

As a type 1 diabetic I rely on the nutrition food labels to be accurate and concise with the information that they put on the nutrition labels and I, in some ways, need to trust that information is correct on all packages and foods, but I've found that this is not the case on ... —adiabeticsjourneytolife.blogspot.ca

Day 309 - Disappoinment in Past Choices

Still, I am waking up from sleeping, even though I slept the `normal` amount of time and at the `normal` time that I usually sleep, with the feeling of disappointment and the want to eat candy, the want to entertain myself, and the want to masturbate, and this feeling is dragg... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 307 - Making the Choice to Be Disappointed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a choice in which, through making the choice in the past, know what and who I am within that choice and know that within making the choice to either sleep or entertain myself in a given moment when I have to oppo... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 306 - Self Interest and Disappointment with Hope and Faith

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand that if I am disappointed in myself for living within self interest then I must move myself to change myself from living in disappointment to living physically applied satisfaction that has... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 305 - Self Interest and Disappointment

I've been having a look at being disappointed in myself for living in self interest and not living up to my expectations to remove self interest and apply myself within that which is best for all in every breath, every moment and what I found within myself when I am disappoint... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 304 - Disappointment and Being Hard on Myself

I've been purposely placing myself in the position of disappointment for the last couple of days to give myself more of an understanding of myself being disappointed in myself and I've found that this is where I am the `hardest` on myself. I am very hard on myself when I am di... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 303 - Moving Through Disappointment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when disappointed in myself not move myself in the physical in practical application of myself to continue to move on my responsibilities as a human in this life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mys... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 302 - Disappointment

The past few days I've been quite disappointed at how I've been living, what I've been living, just seeing it all at once basically, and what my actions could've been, what I could've lived and how I could have approached school, work, relationships in a better way - essential... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 301 - Imagining Desires

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I have spare time, go into thoughts about desires and start backchatting/imagining what it would be like in those scenarios, one of these desires is a relationship, which essentially is sex, wherein I allow mysel... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 300 - Imagination vs Living Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am not living as I am participating in the imagination because I am not here in the physical directing myself, not here in breath being aware of myself in that which I am participating in, but lost ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 298 - Imagination/Backchat/Abuse

This is one point in which I have plagued myself with throughout the time that I have been walking process, and have found little to no change of myself within it, the only change that I approach within the imagination and backchat there within the fantasize about desires is w... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 296 - 297 - The Want for Love/Acceptance Part 7-8

What I've found within the point of communicating for positivity/acceptance/love from another is that this character/behaviourism/personalities is the relationship construct in which I've developed throughout time and imprinted into the physical wherein as I communicate with a... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 295 - The Want for Love/Acceptance Part 6

What I have been applying within this want for love/acceptance within communication is slowing myself down when communicating with another being, being aware of the words that I am speaking and keeping myself calm in interactions with the other being, and what I've found is th... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 294 - The Want for Acceptance/Love Part 5

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ask myself how I want to live in this world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not bring myself back to myself in the realization that all I `have` in this world is me, and accordingly ch... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com