Member since April 2008.

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Have been watching videos since the beginning, started to participate a bit after. Stopped for a relationship then joined back again mid 2010.

Paul Quessy

Day 292 - The Want for Love/Acceptance Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the time and effort to effective investigate myself in/as the relationship of love/acceptance unto myself, wherein the love is where I live habits/patterns that are in support of life here in the physi... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 291 - Wanting Love/Acceptance From Others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk through my adulthood and teenage years in the want for acceptance or love from others within the energetic experience of positivity, where I value myself when/as others that I place value within accept me into th... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 290 - Wanting Love/Acceptance

In the Previous Post I shared a memory of myself being hit by my mother when I was little causing myself to have the want to be accepted by others due to myself expressing myself in that moment and being hit for it, essentially saying that that was unacceptable and who you are... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 289 - Should We Have Control?

In the previous post I outlined how diabetics, who suffer from bulimia will control their insulin injections to get the desired affect of being skinny/thin, and how through the loss of regulation of the pancreas by the body, the human `gains` control over itself and the abilit... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 288 - Diabulima and Self Destruction

Within the past few posts I've been sharing SF on my self destructive patterns and the lack of self trust to give self respect and effective care for life as me/us, and one of the largest points in my life currently is diabetes, and within living in/as a self destructive patte... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 287 - Self Trust Part 6

Within this point of stubbornness and self trust it is apparent to me that this has become the definition of self support for myself wherein I have become stubborn and fearful of myself in/as self support and do not have that trust of myself to support myself in/as the process... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 286 - Self Trust Part 5

Yesterday I allowed myself to go into self sabotage wherein, as I was coming home from school I was feeling lethargic and unwilling to move myself to support myself within doing homework, this lethargy, I created within a relationship and the want for happiness, anyhow, on com... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 285 - Self Trust Part 4

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate on responsibilities wherein I develop a relationship with myself of a lack of self trust due to my acceptance of procrastination towards responsibilities wherein I put off the responsibility for as long ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 284 - Self Trust Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my trust of myself to practically apply myself within responsibilities as if I am not in control of myself, as if I am subject to external forces in which I allow myself to not participate effectively within resp... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 283 - Self Trust Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize backchat as a point of irresponsibility, wherein as I think, hum, and haw about working on/within a responsibility, I am in fact deciding in that moment, behind the curtains of the backchat, that I am not will... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 282 - Self Trust

In the previous post (Day 281 - Slowing Myself Down Part 9) I opened up the point of trusting myself to walk the points of responsibility that I have during the day, and how I've created a relationship with myself of not trusting myself to walk these points of responsibility w... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 281 - Slowing Myself Down Part 9

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when sitting down with myself and relaxing for a period of time, continue to think about the responsibilities that I have not yet done, when I will do those responsibilities, where, how, etc, not allowing myself to be... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Slowing Myself Down Part 9

Within practicing slowing myself down and allowing myself to relax with myself for a moment sitting down on a couch or lying down, I find myself thinking about what I have to do next and the amount of time that I have before it is `too late` for me to apply myself within that ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 279 - Slowing Myself Down Part 7

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get excited about an idea that I've created within the mind about moving myself in the physical reality in/as change, allowing all the thoughts, ideas, beliefs, projections, perceptions, energy, excitement to come run... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 278 - Slowing Myself Down Part - 6

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting as much done as I can within each day to the point where I allow myself to stress myself out with each thought process about what I have to do during the day and the belief of needing to `keep up` wit... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 277 - Slowing Myself Down Part 5

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush within energy when/as I find something interesting, jumping into the subject at full speed and running through as much as I can of the topic because of the excitement and `rush` of adrenaline, moving quickly thro... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 276 - Slowing Myself Down Part 4

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to walk through this system as fast as possible within anything that I do, such as within school as I previously wanted to take 2 courses a day instead of one which would've allowed me no time to study or do h... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 275 - Slowing Myself Down Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move at the pace of the thoughts running within the mind, wherein I am always thinking about what I am going to do next, trying to move as fast as possible as I can within the physical to keep up with the thoughts of ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 274 - Slowing Myself Down Part 2

Taking a look at my past and who I've been within responsibility and money, everything from childhood was given to me, I rarely had to work for myself to give myself anything, the only thing I can remember needing to do was clean up my room at my fathers to receive allowance, ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 273 - Slowing Myself Down

As I was reading through a book about diabetes, the author was giving an example of how stress affected his sugar levels dramatically. He was already late for an important meeting and as he was driving to the meeting, he hit a pot hole, got a flat tire and as he was changing h... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 272 - I want to Live a Normal Life - Part 4

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within being diagnosed with diabetes I have an opportunity to what living a `normal` life consists of in regards to our consumption of food, and that I, within this, have an opportunity to see how thi... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 271 - I want to Live a Normal Life - Diabetics Perspective Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within the statement "I want to live a normal life" I am saying that I want to take what I want from life, I want to have what I want from life, and that I will never be `happy` until I take what I wa... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 270 - I Want to Live a Normal Life - Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to since being diagnosed with diabetes, want to live a normal life, a normal life wherein I am able to still do the things that I would like without being limited by what I can participate in within diabetes, still be ab... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 269 - I Want to Live A Normal Life - Diabetics Perspective

Since I was diagnosed with diabetes I've wanted to still have a `normal` life within the perspective of being able to do what I would like when I would like it - want to travel freely, want to experience things without worry or concern about my BG levels, want to live `care fr... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 268 - Stress and Learning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to narrow in, using the mind's eye, on that which I am not understanding because I believe that since I do not understand the one piece of information, that one piece of information is going to be the failure of myself w... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 267 - Stress and Learning

I will be continuing later on with more emotions and how they affect diabetics, today I am writing about how I experience myself in stress and how, within the math course that I am taking, I am allowing myself to stress myself out with the new knowledge presented and my curren... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 266 - Diabetes and Laziness Part 2

In this post I am continuing with looking at laziness and how it will affect diabetes, and how within self awareness when participating in laziness and how being aware of when/how one participates in laziness , and when one has diabetes, one can consider what will be best for ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 265 - Diabetes and Laziness

Laziness can severely affect the blood sugar levels due to the processes that the body goes into when one is lazy. From my experience, even if I am working and being physically active from the sense that I am moving and still lifting products at the job that I work at, if I am... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 264 - Self Awareness in Care for Diabetes

*note of forewarning - I am not an expert in the functions of the body within diabetes, nor am I qualified as a medical professional - I am only sharing what I've gone through in my life in care and management of myself in diabetes and what I've seen within myself, and how I'v... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 262 + 263 - 21 Days of Self Application - Sleep Patterns

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sleep at a time when I will sleep too long to be able to manage the insulin injections, keep the schedules for responsibilities that I have for other people and myself, sleep at a time when I allow thoughts about slee... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com