Member since April 2008.
Have been watching videos since the beginning, started to participate a bit after. Stopped for a relationship then joined back again mid 2010.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when a thought of resistance comes up wherein it suggests to go do something else rather than work on that which I am resistance, to say no within the mind, wherein I resist the resistance, separating myself from the... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
In Chemistry class we were talking about the organic chemistry and how simple compounds are used for health problems, but with the influence of the pharmaceutical industry these compounds are rarely used and are `kept secret` from patients. Anyways, a girl asked if there was a... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a state of lethargy, apathy, depression, and an unwillingness to move myself here in the physical due to my accepted and allowed resistance to working on a specific subject, task, activity, wherein I allow mys... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about resistance and think that it is so damn uncomfortable, which allows me to create the experience of being uncomfortable when I am resisting something - allows me to feel like I want to jump out of my skin a... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make resistance seem more than what it really is by allowing myself to walk within the energy within the resistance wherein I allow myself to go back and forth on the decision to work on something immediately, thinkin... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to on Mondays, consider the things that can only be done on weekdays, such as booking doctors appointments, scheduling other various appointments, making calls to businesses that are only open during the week, and put th... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Sunday as the day of rest wherein I allow myself to not do anything active and lounge around only doing what I feel like doing at a given moment - wherein I don’t allow myself to apply myself within walking res... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
This is the start of developing a habit of focusing on myself within the assignments and responsibilities that I have within each day - making sure that I commit myself to doing the necessary things that I must do within each day - such as recording blood glucose readings, hom... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
At school today I took a test. This test was stressful for me because there were things on the test from a few units ago that I could not remember correctly and was stressing myself out if I had the rules right to answer the question correctly. As well, after the test I was ta... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complete a test and when/as I see that I am unsure of answers, play the role of ignorance within it and hand it in anyway, not wanting to face that I've made a mistake by double checking my answers and going through m... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist changing my structured living and even questioning whether or not the structure that I am living is what is best for me as life, but to continue on living within the same accepted and allowed patterns internall... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
On listening to the step 5 quantum mind series it was noted that the mind loves a habitual life because the body becomes programmed and essentially can walk the habits and patterns while the mind takes over and creates thoughts while the physical is walking the same patterns a... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I stumbled across this article yesterday http://www.nbcchicago.com/investigations/series/target-5/target-5-sugar-baby-formula-139339308.html In this article it states that sugar listed in baby formula is not needed to be labelled on the nutritional charts but must be labelle... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in despair due to the belief that I will not be with a significant other at this point in time within my life - allowing the feeling of despair because I have separated myself from myself within/as the desire/wan... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the want for love within a relationship is useless in regards to how this world functions and how this system must be walked by each individual human being, because take a look within movies and how l... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
My chemistry teacher made a quick comment about how when one consumes sugar, it paralyses the immune system for x amount of time. This was fascinating to hear, because diabetics are known to have a weak immune system - so I've done some reading and this is the best site that ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this system that we live in is really conducive to fears and stresses and essentially promotes the fears and stresses within the fight or flight response, and that this system within the constant need... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when we are stressed we will access the flight or fight response which has been hardwired into our brains from the primitive days to either fight off predators or to run away from predators or ensuing... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that within the act of committing suicide one is stating in absolution that they are not willing to live within responsibility for that which self has created unto self and thus within my consideration of ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider, think about, even attempt suicide when I find that my life will be limited because of the manifestation of diabetes within me, wherein I feel that the life that I am able to lead with living with diabetes is... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
A friend of mine who works as a Veterinary assistant was telling me about a cat that was diagnosed with diabetes a few days ago. Today she read the consultant report of the family who owns that cat and has shared with me that the family is deciding to euthanize the cat because... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
This post is a continuation of Part 2 concerning University application and the stresses that I am putting myself under in regards to applying to university In order to become accepted to the programs that I would like to be accepted to, I need relatively high grades in each... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not go pee when I have to during class because of the fear of not getting all the information that is being taught - fear of missing out on something which is the fear of the unknown - fearing having information that ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
The largest thing that I am placing stress upon myself right now is university application and the marks that I need to get in order to be able to apply to the program that I would like to get into - that I aim and plan on getting into - that I expect myself to get into. What ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
Within the points that I am walking within the system - my time is very limited and very compact when I have to get things done. I am finding that I do not have time for anything other than my routine at the moment so when a point comes up in my reality that I need to direct, ... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn, develop, and create myself in a way where I suppress my emotions that I feel with a given moment through creating a point of happiness to put a veil over the emotions so that I do not have to directly experienc... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that somehow, eventually, everything will be ok because when I cut my eye and was very confused and fearful of what was happening in my reality at that time I was treated with stitches and given McDonalds afte... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to be rewarded heavily for minimal effort being put into the job that I am doing, failing to realize that what I put into the task, the job will be equal to that which I receive from the task, such as with scho... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the effort or put in the effort into this world, into my participation in this life in equality to that which I would like to receive from this world from living from that which I would like to be able to liv... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want life to be easy by having things handed to me on a platter for doing nothing - for giving no effort into the equation of receiving - allowing myself to become expectant of rewards throughout my life for putting i... —paulsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
