Rebecca Dalmas

Mental Graphic Novel Business Day 784

This week I was working with a child, who I noticed as the behaviors, was, ‘ standing in something’ that was the best match for what they felt. I likened this to how absorbent I am, we are, as our innate capacity to understand. The child appeared to me to be trying this out, b... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Looking at Stories ; Continuing Obstructions Day 782

I am looking at stories. I am looking at meter, at measure, at time. There is something called a mini-day schedule. It is where one has a form of measure of time, where during a certain space in time, each day, one takes care of certain actions in relation to one’s enterpr... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

A sense of falling Day 781

What is a sense of falling? Why have I come to a point where I sense a movement of falling? I remember this sensation when I had to do an audition, or perform in a lesson at times. I remember saying no, and focusing instead. Somehow that focus lent a steadiness, the sense o... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The distraction of the #obstructionist Day 779

Usually, in the morning I wake up and something comes forward within me. This morning, subsequent to talking to someone the day before about learning, what came up is how what we inform ourselves, as what we allow to be placed within ourselves and comes to automate the body. M... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

A dream coat of a mind-consciousness projection Day 777

If I want presence of and as all things, I have to become that presence. This means I have to hear the life around me as the physical reality. Facing the metaphysical bubbles of self interest, that move as a colored energetic emotional swirl, visible in the subtle and visible... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Progressive separation Day 776

A sense of rushing, where rushing is racing towards something. Rushing to where, for what, when I am here. Why would there be any where but here? Then one becomes tired of the rushing, rush -hing rustle hinge, What is the sound, how colored is this sound with hindrance’s of my... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The storm is only as big as I allow it Day 775

Yesterday a local person I have known for years sat and talked with me. The degree of the use of hyperbole, which uses labels intensified with value judgements, in the words and descriptions used told no real story other than techno-colored dream coat. lol. The word ‘ techno’ ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The pressure of thin-king on the heart Day 774

What does it mean to stand as a word that is grounded and aware of itself, in relation to considering all things? How does on have a command as a faith in who and what one is as a starting point as what is constant and here, in all ways? At present, I feel like I am per... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Being in sink or being in synch Day 773

One of the things I have encountered in my life is how to carry on a conversation. I remember my husband asking me this one time. It would be difficult to carry on a conversation, if one had a lot of memories coming up, with emotional poles, pulling one in a direction. It ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

LOOKING at anger Day 771

LOOKING at anger. Fear can be so blinding. one cannot see the forest through the trees. As one is so focused on the lack, as the fear, which is a loss of presence and what is natural as common sense. Fear is not being in solution. It is being in projection. I cannot ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

What is LOOKING ; continued Day 770

What is LOOKING continued. Lately, I so notice when I have missed what is right in front of me. An example is having used a kitchen device. This device has a tool that comes with it, to process the food more effectively. The other day, while using this device, I stood there a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Segmented practices that show us who we are. Day 769

Why do I fear LOOKING? In performing, I have practiced being focused on myself, the movement of music around me, as parts and the overall whole. This is what looking is, and when accepting of what is, one sees the greater structure, and can retain more presence , even withi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The ungroundedness of self interest Day 767

Two days ago I had an interaction with a man. I had been waiting to use an ATM. He was the next in line. For some reason, I assumed he was with the person in the ATM. Perhaps because he was standing somewhat at a distance from the AT> The person in the ATM came out, and I move... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Confusion and fear is not enough information Day 765

I sense a weight in my cheat, that slowing becomes more and more defined as what builds and creates this presence within and as me. The best approach at the moment, and also to solution is to acknowledge this and to stand in the practical as what lends effective movement wi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The resonant seed of time lines of and as myself Day 763

In my thirties I realized within the discipline of playing the violin that there were interferences within my ability to focus that were getting in the way. I did not realize the depth of this, yet I did realize that being focused was the way forward at the time. In some u... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Self forgiveness on Love Day 762

continued from the previous post I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a love in a narrow focus, at the exclusion of everything else. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that making something larger ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

More interference as mind consciousness systems of separation .Day 759

“Interference theory is theory regarding human memory. Interference occurs in learning when there is an interaction between the new material and transfer effects of past learned behavior, memories or thoughts that have a negative influence in comprehending the new material. Br... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Interference Theory Day 758

“Interference theory is theory regarding human memory. Interference occurs in learning when there is an interaction between the new material and transfer effects of past learned behavior, memories or thoughts that have a negative influence in comprehending the new material. Br... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

I become what I allow Day 757

Today I am going to look at self pity, that heavy and slow belief that one is not good enough. It is composed of projecting an idea that one cannot do something. There are two points here as i see it, one is that one focuses on the lack, that something cannot be done, and... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

More on Processing Information . Day 756

I have decided to do a 21 day consistent blog post. Something that I have not done for a while. Why? To realize patterns, to improve the ability to see how I move every day. To practice realizing patterns to increase my recognition of patterns of behavior and by extension, ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Working with my own emotional firewalls Day 753

I had an interaction with a family member where I noticed that I rushed in something I said. If I look, I realize an pattern that I have lived come forward. It is a color of rushing, and of trying to get on top of something said, to both push it away and fix it. What also happ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Every Moment is an Opportunity Day 750

I spent time with someone yesterday and had a cool moment in hearing their perspective, as what they have lived and done in their life. It was about being in a space where within the morality, a false morality, the voices in their head was that they should not be there, and ye... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

What am I standing as? Day 749

So, there is this fear, it is such a wall, or appears to be so. Despite the life that is me, seeing this, at the same time, moving through this appears to be impossible. Yet, like any knot, some things take time to unwind. Opening them up to realize the twists and turns, is a ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 748 Looking at frustration to realize my own fear.

That point where i become frustrated, I can use as a red flag , in terms of what behaviors I choose and use to direct myself within, as a moment. If I lose myself to frustration, I become inferior to myself, unequal to moving through the border of my ability to ‘ know the scor... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 747 My own structural resonance and emotional firewalls.

My own structural resonance and emotional firewalls. I recently interacted with what I saw as a very large emotional firewall. I have had enough experience in my life that I realize in moments that it was not so much what I said, but more in how I said what I said. What I m... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 746 MOTHER earth is speaking.

I remember when performing that a key could change, and the whole tenor as the very fabric of the music could change. I remember asking myself in my earlier years, how I could move with this more, as become more fluid within the content. In time, as I practiced and mastered th... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Looking within Felicity Day 745

I am looking at resistance, as resistance is fear. I remember sometimes in music, a phrase or form would appear to be unable-to-be-understood for me. The form would come and the math, the measure of it was like something distant from me. It was as though there was a veil i... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Presence and resonance beingness . Who am I? Day 744

In my last blog I wrote about sensing what can only be called a resonant change within myself, after living in a foreign country. I wrote about how I noticed a physical resistance that precipitated calling out a behavior as being extreme where previously, before living in a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Memories are a resonant being . Day 743

Two memories have come up that I have looked at before. I notice that I also have back chat or “worst case scenario’ imagery coming up. The worst case scenario ‘ episodes’ are really random, using all manner of imagery. I have these come up in relation to driving because I ha... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

E-motional memory verses Superior memory. Day 742

Emotional memory verses superior memory. What is an emotional memory? It is a memory that moves by association, a scattered self, building stories to avoid looking directly here, and choosing to self direct in effective and practical ways. It is a memory that is a mis-use ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

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