Rebecca Dalmas

Changing the goal post Manipulation wth words Day 793

Two things I carry with me, as a measure, as a tool, to help me to help myself, are the terms, the words, for a moment as a tool so-to-speak, ad hominem and hyperbole. An example of ‘ ad hominem’ is another way to reveal a change in the ‘ goal post.’ I was talking with a ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

My ikonography of too muchness Day 792

A couple of days ago, I was with my mother. I had invited her and a visiting sibling over for dinner. The conversation then went to other family members, and all the doom and gloom emotional states of being, one of my siblings was , from my mom’s perspective, existing wit... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Is sudden onset of erratic breathing normal ? Day 791

Regret, as a form of self pity. That it is too lateness, that is a composition of sadness, that is in itself an illusion, as the joy of self calling -out-by-name is the means to the end, to become auto-didactic, self determining. To realize the interference ( inter fear-ness... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Reviewing the practical Day 790

I notice that I have back chat that I do not do enough, or am not doing enough. This then generates anxiety about that “ not ding enough.’ In many ways, as a western east coast woman, this would match the general ideological class program of believing that I have to work ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Looking at the word 'meaning' Day 789

Meaning and Compassion What is meaning? Or is meaning already here, as the physical in expression? Something that cannot really be described because if one is focused on that, the act of describing is inherent in the doing, and therefor cannot really be described, because ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Looking at the word " sharing ' Day 788

Sharing, redefining the word sharing. Show air, open up the form, bring it forward to rebalance within principle of and as what is best for all. The principle of oneness and equality, into what respects all things, taking that which is good and does no harm. This being a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

More deconstruction of MLM forms Day 787

I have had this back chat that is, as always, a complaint, which is a projection of blame and spite to and towards things around me, as expectations of how things should be. This is myself not looking here, not doing the math, to see, realize and understand here, this reality,... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Teenagers and Multi Level Markets Day 786

Yesterday I was talking with a father about their children. There is a lot of conflict with the children in terms of being self directed and at ease in their world. I have to remember that we as humans are happy when we are focused and anxious when we are not. When I was in... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Feeling and Structure and walking a dog. Day 785

I notice that there appears to me to be two sides happening. Somehow they are within utilization of an inherent absorbent ability and utilizing structure. Somehow, the gap, must come together between the two as I see it at the moment. It appears to me that there are two sc... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Mental Graphic Novel Business Day 784

This week I was working with a child, who I noticed as the behaviors, was, ‘ standing in something’ that was the best match for what they felt. I likened this to how absorbent I am, we are, as our innate capacity to understand. The child appeared to me to be trying this out, b... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Looking at Stories ; Continuing Obstructions Day 782

I am looking at stories. I am looking at meter, at measure, at time. There is something called a mini-day schedule. It is where one has a form of measure of time, where during a certain space in time, each day, one takes care of certain actions in relation to one’s enterpr... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

A sense of falling Day 781

What is a sense of falling? Why have I come to a point where I sense a movement of falling? I remember this sensation when I had to do an audition, or perform in a lesson at times. I remember saying no, and focusing instead. Somehow that focus lent a steadiness, the sense o... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The distraction of the #obstructionist Day 779

Usually, in the morning I wake up and something comes forward within me. This morning, subsequent to talking to someone the day before about learning, what came up is how what we inform ourselves, as what we allow to be placed within ourselves and comes to automate the body. M... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

A dream coat of a mind-consciousness projection Day 777

If I want presence of and as all things, I have to become that presence. This means I have to hear the life around me as the physical reality. Facing the metaphysical bubbles of self interest, that move as a colored energetic emotional swirl, visible in the subtle and visible... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Progressive separation Day 776

A sense of rushing, where rushing is racing towards something. Rushing to where, for what, when I am here. Why would there be any where but here? Then one becomes tired of the rushing, rush -hing rustle hinge, What is the sound, how colored is this sound with hindrance’s of my... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The storm is only as big as I allow it Day 775

Yesterday a local person I have known for years sat and talked with me. The degree of the use of hyperbole, which uses labels intensified with value judgements, in the words and descriptions used told no real story other than techno-colored dream coat. lol. The word ‘ techno’ ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The pressure of thin-king on the heart Day 774

What does it mean to stand as a word that is grounded and aware of itself, in relation to considering all things? How does on have a command as a faith in who and what one is as a starting point as what is constant and here, in all ways? At present, I feel like I am per... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Being in sink or being in synch Day 773

One of the things I have encountered in my life is how to carry on a conversation. I remember my husband asking me this one time. It would be difficult to carry on a conversation, if one had a lot of memories coming up, with emotional poles, pulling one in a direction. It ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

LOOKING at anger Day 771

LOOKING at anger. Fear can be so blinding. one cannot see the forest through the trees. As one is so focused on the lack, as the fear, which is a loss of presence and what is natural as common sense. Fear is not being in solution. It is being in projection. I cannot ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

What is LOOKING ; continued Day 770

What is LOOKING continued. Lately, I so notice when I have missed what is right in front of me. An example is having used a kitchen device. This device has a tool that comes with it, to process the food more effectively. The other day, while using this device, I stood there a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Segmented practices that show us who we are. Day 769

Why do I fear LOOKING? In performing, I have practiced being focused on myself, the movement of music around me, as parts and the overall whole. This is what looking is, and when accepting of what is, one sees the greater structure, and can retain more presence , even withi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The ungroundedness of self interest Day 767

Two days ago I had an interaction with a man. I had been waiting to use an ATM. He was the next in line. For some reason, I assumed he was with the person in the ATM. Perhaps because he was standing somewhat at a distance from the AT> The person in the ATM came out, and I move... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Confusion and fear is not enough information Day 765

I sense a weight in my cheat, that slowing becomes more and more defined as what builds and creates this presence within and as me. The best approach at the moment, and also to solution is to acknowledge this and to stand in the practical as what lends effective movement wi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The resonant seed of time lines of and as myself Day 763

In my thirties I realized within the discipline of playing the violin that there were interferences within my ability to focus that were getting in the way. I did not realize the depth of this, yet I did realize that being focused was the way forward at the time. In some u... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Self forgiveness on Love Day 762

continued from the previous post I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a love in a narrow focus, at the exclusion of everything else. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that making something larger ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

More interference as mind consciousness systems of separation .Day 759

“Interference theory is theory regarding human memory. Interference occurs in learning when there is an interaction between the new material and transfer effects of past learned behavior, memories or thoughts that have a negative influence in comprehending the new material. Br... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Interference Theory Day 758

“Interference theory is theory regarding human memory. Interference occurs in learning when there is an interaction between the new material and transfer effects of past learned behavior, memories or thoughts that have a negative influence in comprehending the new material. Br... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

I become what I allow Day 757

Today I am going to look at self pity, that heavy and slow belief that one is not good enough. It is composed of projecting an idea that one cannot do something. There are two points here as i see it, one is that one focuses on the lack, that something cannot be done, and... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

More on Processing Information . Day 756

I have decided to do a 21 day consistent blog post. Something that I have not done for a while. Why? To realize patterns, to improve the ability to see how I move every day. To practice realizing patterns to increase my recognition of patterns of behavior and by extension, ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Working with my own emotional firewalls Day 753

I had an interaction with a family member where I noticed that I rushed in something I said. If I look, I realize an pattern that I have lived come forward. It is a color of rushing, and of trying to get on top of something said, to both push it away and fix it. What also happ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

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