Rebecca Dalmas

Day 693 The system mirrors what I accept and allow over time.

The night before last, I reacted to some information. I had to breath and slow down, reforming my value judgement into a practical measure that realized an outcome that would be what is best for all. I have to realize what forms I am within, change and reorder over time. What... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 692 The richness of potential. It is always here.

In people I notice that there is something soft and fluid. A sharp edge can appear and yet, it will yield to a softer openness, and change. I tend to look at what is sharp, and avoid this. I forget the softness that is always there, something always within reach. Just as i... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 691 What is seven generations? Does the value judgement hide the means?

Coming out from under the a lack of responsibility to what is here. I have these memories that appear so vague. I would not say they are a back chat of words, they are in themselves a form that has no word. A recent one is a movement of myself feeling like there is this pr... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 670 Changing my own self absorption.

There is a tension in my right arm, this is information, and it is heavy as the information that is me is limited, it does not fit into the physical world, move with here, with ease. I have accepted and allowed ideas, beliefs and opinions to define what is real. I have used my... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

What is automaticity and what is a thought?

In the education system there is something called automaticity. This is when some information, some measure about something has been ‘ owned.’ Meaning that one knows it so well, they have integrated that information. When a musician practices something, again and again, u... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 687 What rings into eternity? Equality and oneness. It is a physical life.

I have noticed in talking with people, that there are these moments when a thin film comes towards me, like a wisp. And then I noticed when I do this myself, as this is like a separation from being grounded here in this physical world, a much more stable state of being. This s... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 686 Revisiting Blame. Realizing the practice of self forgiveness and self correction.

When I go into anger I go into fear. My reflection is then based on limitation, as I am fearing survival more than being present here, equal and one to the math of existence, a physical existence. I mean, why does television effective? Why is the measure of it so ubiquitous? ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 686 Am I really insignificant? I am here, I am physical. The value is being life.

If I expect others to infer any emotional poles behind my words, are I not expecting others to see the emotional pole within me as something as real as I believe it to be?? ( This is actually insane!) And if I have to expose that emotional pole, and a solution is given to me,... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 685 The Caregiver Archetype continued. Self Corrective Statements.

The Caregiver Archetype Today I had a meeting where I had to evaluate information I had accumulated and listen to perspectives about that information. I then had to frame the perspective in practical ways, calling measure by name. For example, the description of an embedded... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 684 Continuation of the Caregiver Archetype. Day 2.

In relation to the caregiver archetype, I have had pressure on the back of my neck for some time. Also, there appears to be some pressure behind my eyes. When I would go and look at the pressure behind my eyes, I would experience thoughts about my sisters. It was that my siste... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 683 The archetype of the caregiver. My journey to life.

The Caregiver Archetype Placing value in being needed by others. This has been character that I have been aware of for some time. I realize that this is not being self responsible, it is seeking meaning through being needed by others. It is character picked up from my mother... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 682 Is the metered measure within, as personality, grounded without as the practical necessity of real living on a physical world?

The longer I walk the process of my journey back to life, I realize how much music is very similar to this process. In music one can sometimes play a piece that changes the time signature from measure to measure. This means adjusting one’s sense of measure in time and space in... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 681 Our greatest gift becomes our greatest weakness and is the means to change.

I had a moment yesterday where a woman arrived while I was working with a child. The child was taking an assessment and the woman came and called out her name from a distance. I went and said to the woman that the child would be done in a moment. The woman reacted. Yet she t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 680 The process of what I allow within and as me.

In the process of self forgiveness, in begin to realize how much I determine who and what I am in a moment. Before, I would be so lost in ideas, beliefs and opinions, finding one to define who and what I am. It is like using myself within to form a measure that defines me. I ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 679 Opening the Chest To Heaven on Earth.

At the moment I read books where I realize there are comparisons that appear to spin in a contradiction, making some things within the association have meaning that is not at all clear. Defining the words and making sense out of a spin as an idea, means speaking up and pointi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 678 Who am I Within How I Focus Myself Here?

I notice I have something accumulating in my solar plexus. I woke after clicking on a tarot card notice that brought up the card ‘ comparison.’ And I have been worried about money. It is this idea that I am limited in my movements based on the amount of money I have at ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 677 What are you auditioning with yourself?

At times, recently, I am in a situation where information is ‘ coming at me’ and I suddenly feel overwhelmed. Numerous thoughts comes up, each one not myself standing here, assessing what is here. I want to make some value huge, where I go into doom and gloom , or specificall... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 676 Becoming aware of emotional/feeling bodies on my physical body. Who am I within Presence?

Lately, I have noticed while interacting with others, that a moment can happen that appears like a swoon, as how I want to describe it. It happened specifically while sitting with another person, where I noticed their body swung in my direction and they laughed. It appeared li... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 675 Where is the presence of me?

I have been talking a deconstruction of the order of belief, as the construction that sounds itself as the thoughts in and as my mind, as the very measure of my perception within my experiences in my life. The latest deconstruction of what I accepted and allowed has the word c... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 692 Value judgements as the data I allowed to define me in fear of being self responsible.

I looked at a memory that came up in relation to friend of mine of many years, that I do not have much to do with even though we live very close to one another. I remember as a teenager that I would become annoyed with her because she tended to disappear suddenly when I was w... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 691 What am I doing here, as in how am I moving here, within myself.

One of the many reasons I walk the Desteni I Process is because I noticed some things as I matured in life. There are two things that stand out. One was within practicing the violin. And I remember a teacher telling me that how I practiced was very important, so this is... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 690 Why am I here?

I am dealing with the system at the moment. Sometimes I feel as though I am on a slippery slope as I talk with other people. I have to remind myself why I am here. I have to remind myself what the manifested and/or manufactured behaviors are of a cracked and crumbling belief s... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 689 Debt as wages and Steve Jobs.

I read this article here, about capitalism. The part where debt was used to allow for declining wages, as, according to the article, began in the 70’s here in America, shows how we perceptually remeasure things, as an ability within each of us. In this case, in this article, t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 688 Emotion is another form of data.

Emotion is another form of data. When I heard this I immediately thought about who and what I am, if I slowed down to consider that emotion is another form of data. This means that my personality is a form of data, as my personality is what I like and what I resist. It me... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 687 the presence of a wall of memories; the effort to speak as a child.

What is a wall? I woke up this morning with this word in my head. I realize the sense of a ‘ wall’ around me is my own making. It only defines me if I accept and allow it. I also heard a statement about the nature of Astrological signs this week. The woman said that water... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 686 Walking on the eggshells of a scattered presence.

Walking on Eggshells. Why do we say, “ Walking on eggshells”? What are we in essence doing when we believe we are walking on eggshells? I had a conversation with my sister this morning. We talked about family and the personalities in families. What is a personality? It ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 685 The will to sort the unsorted to realize what is eternal, the absolute purpose of life.

Changing, looking away from judgement- a fear of loss. The will to withstand the test of time. Looking at my mind constructions, I see a pattern. I am using the means of understanding something, as the means to assess, to protect myself from having to stand through upsettin... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 684 Is my accepted and allowed automation reminding me of the seasons?

Am I automated within behaviors? Do I realize how automated I have become, missing the changes in the seasons, forgetting what happened last year at this time? Do I realize how much I am lost in my own measure, my own memory, my own past experience? Can I see that what is not ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 683 I am here.

I have this pain in my left foot at times. Not really strong. It feels like a presence, a veil of something heavy and dark. It is spite, which is a suppression of myself, a holding back, in order to survive. It is taking on a personification to fit into a metaphysical measure... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 682 Becoming a Point of Change. From Nothingness into Creation as What is Best for All.

Becoming a point of change, where change is a starting point in every moment. I am sitting with someone, and listening, I realize I am beginning to get tense, as though I am forming into something. The other day in a supermarket, I realized that I wanted to press a picture,... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com