Rebecca Dalmas

Remaining Grounded and seeing the Ephemeral Manipulation of Sound. Day 740

remaining grounded and seeing the ephemeral manipulation of sound, as the very words, as our focus with which we speak. I have been working with children, to the point where I live an invisible warped ephemeral movement in relation to the processing of words, as the spellin... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

What is the Semmelweis Effect? What is personality? What is sound character? What is a false morality? What is correct action? Day 739

I ask myself what is right action and a state of being in righteousness? Right action is focus of will on the practical, where there is no inner personality resisting or having expectations as the focus is always on solutions. What does it mean to no longer have a personality/... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Generating Meaning is ? Day 738

The elephant in the room, generating meaning that is separate from reality. This morning I woke up, after reading perspective on ‘ meaning’ generation when I realized that the elephant in the room is that very meaning generation within me, as all the societal constructs th... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

More on Bringing it Back to Self Day 737

Bringing it back to self. I am looking at the means justifying the ends. Reviewing this. I realize that what I aggrandize, as make huge, like an elephant in the room, is what I attend to, as focus on. Is this in self interest, as a relationship of protecting what I defin... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The FUNdamentals Day 736

The FUNdamentals I am physical, a human being. I am this foundation, this FUNdament. The basis of who and what I am is physical. This is what is real and what I see every day, this is what is the fundamental foundation of who and what I am. This is what i am before any r... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Teach Talking as the Education of Experience Day 735

I played music for so long that I got to the point where when a mistake happened it meant correcting something, that is all. There was no one to blame only the correction to make. I remember a stand partner, who rushed at a certain point and myself becoming irritated becau... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The Starting point is the ending point, morality and the holographic of memory Day 735

The starting point is the ending point, morality and Facing holographics of memory. I notice that at times, processing what I have accepted and allowed as a math, as a measure as a form, memorized within and as who and what I have accepted myself to allow myself to be, as a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Learning step by step to redress a limited morality Day 733

This week I had conversation with people in very different positions in this world. I have learned to become quiet and listen with greater ease. Meaning instead of reacting I listen, to hear the forms, to see the ‘ numbers’ placed before me, as the measure of the information. ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Who am I? What do I process as information? Day 732

I had one of those situations where I realized I was not doing the math. I was not looking at the numbers, I was not looking at the equation. I simply followed something that had been said again and again, and accepted this as a truth. I was not really LOOKING. I was not cros... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Processing information and a false morality. Day 731

I begin to realize how slow I am within processing information. It is that I process information within my imagination, or my mind, abdicating myself from what is more natural, which is to see directly here. Bumping up against the dogma that is what such a means of directin... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Taking the word PRIDE apart Day 730

Pride has a pull for me. I want to reject it, never allow myself the gift of this as I fear that the moment I am proud of something I will lose it. This has, been my experience in some ways. Those moments I felt I had reached something, only to have my joy taken from me. And y... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

A mis-use of pride- something to sort out! Day 729

One thing I notice within myself, in terms of processing my own storied information, biased and based on not having enough information, and/or not listening and looking at the practical, as myself as a living being that is physical, is how much I resisted problem solving. Mean... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Remaining grounded even with the politician of the mind Day 728

The ending point is the the staring point. The power within staying the course. I had a confrontation with a group I help run. I had explained to another person within whom I share management with this group to keep things simple, meaning, one remained within a schedule,... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Taking things for granted and the smallest of movements Day 727

Taking things for granted and the magic of the smallest of movements. One of the things I realized in my journey of playing the violin was at the end, withiin a degree of mastery, the importance of remembering the smallest of movements as being the means to the end. What... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Automated time-lines of self accepted information in animation Day 726

In doing a walk though my past, to see, realize and understand how I have constructed personalities within and as me, as movements from my past, where I essentially did not do the math of existence, as common sense, and instead manipulated myself within to compensate for what ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 701 Revisiting paper work. Remembering to slow down and become practical.

I notice that I get anxious when I think of dealing with the paper work systems. I have an idea, in opposition to my reality within this. Why? Because in my reality I have done a lot of paper work, and managed to walk through it, even correcting mistakes. I have created a rela... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 670 the voice of the words ' no' and the word 'LOOK' within and as me.

Lately I feel like I am being crushed. Yet is this being wound up in the mind? Then I remembered that what goes on in my head, is not real. And that in this process, things can get more intense the smaller they appear to become. Sometimes it takes me by surprise. No matte... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 699 How can this be?

I am again looking at my experience within playing the violin. I remember in my thirties, especially, when had two small children and I spent time practicing. I realized through those years that if I practiced with a part of myself resolving problems, which is myself being in... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 698 I love words. Yet not in the way I think.

I have been told that I am, or have loved, to be intellectual. Yet, this being true to some extent, it never really quite fit. I loved words in many ways. I loved it when someone said something in a different way. I could read very badly written books just to hear how the per... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 697 The separation from existence in the resistances to the real story.

The separation from existence in the resistances to the real story. I can see when I resist. I can see this because I fear telling the real story, and instead I hold onto the lie. I know when I lie because I resist the real story. I see this when I react, whenI suppress exp... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 396 Does Consciousness work differently than we think? What is the simple?

The simple makes the steps small, outlines them, structures them. The simple grounds, lends ease and turns inflated ideas into possibilities, into measurable applications. Fear inflates values, causing chaos and the loss of communication with life. This is a loss of connec... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 695 The allowance of self discovery.

The allowance of self discovery. In slowing down and learning to listen, I realized a point in building relationships with others. It is also a relationship with myself. I slow down and listen to what thoughts, opinions and ideas accumulate and are allowed that then define... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 694 Does the degree of automated behavior match the degree of a lack of presence?

There was a time when I was cooking every night for my children. Someone had given me this small tv, so I put this in the kitchen and would watch the news as I cooked. Then, as the news ended and a tv series would come on, I suddenly found myself watching the series, and it st... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 693 The system mirrors what I accept and allow over time.

The night before last, I reacted to some information. I had to breath and slow down, reforming my value judgement into a practical measure that realized an outcome that would be what is best for all. I have to realize what forms I am within, change and reorder over time. What... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 692 The richness of potential. It is always here.

In people I notice that there is something soft and fluid. A sharp edge can appear and yet, it will yield to a softer openness, and change. I tend to look at what is sharp, and avoid this. I forget the softness that is always there, something always within reach. Just as i... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 691 What is seven generations? Does the value judgement hide the means?

Coming out from under the a lack of responsibility to what is here. I have these memories that appear so vague. I would not say they are a back chat of words, they are in themselves a form that has no word. A recent one is a movement of myself feeling like there is this pr... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 670 Changing my own self absorption.

There is a tension in my right arm, this is information, and it is heavy as the information that is me is limited, it does not fit into the physical world, move with here, with ease. I have accepted and allowed ideas, beliefs and opinions to define what is real. I have used my... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

What is automaticity and what is a thought?

In the education system there is something called automaticity. This is when some information, some measure about something has been ‘ owned.’ Meaning that one knows it so well, they have integrated that information. When a musician practices something, again and again, u... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 687 What rings into eternity? Equality and oneness. It is a physical life.

I have noticed in talking with people, that there are these moments when a thin film comes towards me, like a wisp. And then I noticed when I do this myself, as this is like a separation from being grounded here in this physical world, a much more stable state of being. This s... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 686 Revisiting Blame. Realizing the practice of self forgiveness and self correction.

When I go into anger I go into fear. My reflection is then based on limitation, as I am fearing survival more than being present here, equal and one to the math of existence, a physical existence. I mean, why does television effective? Why is the measure of it so ubiquitous? ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com