Rebecca Dalmas

Day 692 Value judgements as the data I allowed to define me in fear of being self responsible.

I looked at a memory that came up in relation to friend of mine of many years, that I do not have much to do with even though we live very close to one another. I remember as a teenager that I would become annoyed with her because she tended to disappear suddenly when I was w... —

Day 691 What am I doing here, as in how am I moving here, within myself.

One of the many reasons I walk the Desteni I Process is because I noticed some things as I matured in life. There are two things that stand out. One was within practicing the violin. And I remember a teacher telling me that how I practiced was very important, so this is... —

Day 690 Why am I here?

I am dealing with the system at the moment. Sometimes I feel as though I am on a slippery slope as I talk with other people. I have to remind myself why I am here. I have to remind myself what the manifested and/or manufactured behaviors are of a cracked and crumbling belief s... —

Day 689 Debt as wages and Steve Jobs.

I read this article here, about capitalism. The part where debt was used to allow for declining wages, as, according to the article, began in the 70’s here in America, shows how we perceptually remeasure things, as an ability within each of us. In this case, in this article, t... —

Day 688 Emotion is another form of data.

Emotion is another form of data. When I heard this I immediately thought about who and what I am, if I slowed down to consider that emotion is another form of data. This means that my personality is a form of data, as my personality is what I like and what I resist. It me... —

Day 687 the presence of a wall of memories; the effort to speak as a child.

What is a wall? I woke up this morning with this word in my head. I realize the sense of a ‘ wall’ around me is my own making. It only defines me if I accept and allow it. I also heard a statement about the nature of Astrological signs this week. The woman said that water... —

Day 686 Walking on the eggshells of a scattered presence.

Walking on Eggshells. Why do we say, “ Walking on eggshells”? What are we in essence doing when we believe we are walking on eggshells? I had a conversation with my sister this morning. We talked about family and the personalities in families. What is a personality? It ... —

Day 685 The will to sort the unsorted to realize what is eternal, the absolute purpose of life.

Changing, looking away from judgement- a fear of loss. The will to withstand the test of time. Looking at my mind constructions, I see a pattern. I am using the means of understanding something, as the means to assess, to protect myself from having to stand through upsettin... —

Day 684 Is my accepted and allowed automation reminding me of the seasons?

Am I automated within behaviors? Do I realize how automated I have become, missing the changes in the seasons, forgetting what happened last year at this time? Do I realize how much I am lost in my own measure, my own memory, my own past experience? Can I see that what is not ... —

Day 683 I am here.

I have this pain in my left foot at times. Not really strong. It feels like a presence, a veil of something heavy and dark. It is spite, which is a suppression of myself, a holding back, in order to survive. It is taking on a personification to fit into a metaphysical measure... —

Day 682 Becoming a Point of Change. From Nothingness into Creation as What is Best for All.

Becoming a point of change, where change is a starting point in every moment. I am sitting with someone, and listening, I realize I am beginning to get tense, as though I am forming into something. The other day in a supermarket, I realized that I wanted to press a picture,... —

Day 681 A self divided upon itself.

Today I had a meeting, and it seemed I could hold so much of it in one consistent form. It is an interesting thing, self discovery, because it is normal, it is practical, it is here. The chaos of a memory that has been allowed to become bigger than reality is the problem. The ... —

Day 680 Moving from mind consciousness to presence here, forgiving the stim of limitation.

I was out walking this morning, when I could see how I funneled myself into ideas, beliefs and opinions. Like I take the very focus of and as me and force it into a measure, like a construct of values within a creation as an image. There is this memory of a fear of not fit... —

Day 679 Moving into reaction instead of solution.

Moving into reaction instead of solution. Yesterday I met someone while out in my world and had a conversation where I talked about some behaviors with a certain person in relation to dealing with someone we both knew. After the conversation, as I walked in the market, I ... —

Day 678 The ease that comes with self responsibility.

That a child is born without language and without culture, means that a child eventually is programmed. This means a human is a programmed man. What is behind that program is a form, that can take in information as what is impulsed within an environment. If what is programmed ... —

Day 677 Stopping Imagination to realize the value of being present.

I woke up in the morning And I noticed that I readily went into my imagination. I had to stop. It is like a pull into something to do, to be. Behind which one can create an outcome that allows one to win in one’s mind. And it has nothing to do with being here. It has nothin... —

Day 676 Ideas need not define me, because what I am before ideas is physical.

I realize in so many ways how the habit of fear, of not looking here, can cause myself to want to hide or rush an idea into a situation. And all the while, that which is needed to solve problems is practical and measurable, right in front of me. The other day, in a presenta... —

Day 675 Where am I constant?

I notice there are times when I do not react to another’s behavior. I noticed I become very patient It is like water rolling off of me. More often, I either do not respond, or in the same calm way that I am within not reacting, I speak up and reform what is said, in the third... —

Day 674 Information is not free, yet information is free.

In the last days I notice a growing loopy-ness, as I call it. Meaning, I have a sense of not being grounded, present, here. It feels like there are too many things to juggle at the moment, like I am pulling stings and balancing them out. I watch for self pity, blame, spi... —

Day 673 I am the nature of change.

I realize that I fear change, and yet this is a natural ability within me, and the physical world surrounds me to enable me to change to fit with what is here, and to work with in ways that do no harm. I can see where television, imparts a vision that has nothing to do with... —

Day 672 Returning to Common Sense.

Returning to common sense. Last night, as I was driving back from a second presentation for the week, I wanted to go into all manner of self doubt and give up. The problem is that the drama within and as me, had no common sense. This was myself looking at lack, instead of t... —

Day 671 Fearing to Let Self Definitions Go. Becoming the change I want to see.

Fearing to let self definitions go. In walking the journey to life I realize with each step, how much I allow knowledge and information to guide me, as in myself following information without respect for the source of that information which is this physical world. Thus, I r... —

Day 659 The presence of a baby in nature; silent, stable, lite, fluid.

Yesterday I walked with my young three plus month old nephew. We walked around the house, his hands reaching out to touch what was before him, The baby also being aware of the spatial measure within the distance of his hand and what was before him. He would reach out, draw his... —

Day 657 What leads is the past information, as what is here as the physical. What is Generation?

I can see the travesty of the refugee system where whole masses of people are running from bombs and destruction as drones and planes fly over and bomb this earth. How in any way does this make any sense? Human beings can create wonderful things, they are very very capable of... —

Day 656 It is time to come home.

If I can only focus on one thing at a time, then the small is here right in front of me for me to use to direct myself in ways that do no harm. I have to feel here, the space around me, just as a young baby does, sensing the space as that arm begins to move from it’s side to a... —

Day 655 Personalities bouncing around as the pressures of life take their toll.

I was having a conversation about a family friend's daughter who had become the prodigal son- so to speak. This girl had rejected her family traditions and married someone outside of her culture. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it can lead to division if time is not t... —

Day 654 I may ground myself here, into equality and oneness with the physical to stand equal and one to life.

If I carry around my past, as all the experiences I have that are charged with fear, I cannot see the potential of what is here as the physical as life in expression. My reptilian brain stands with the weight of that charge, slowing me down, and all I see is threat and possibi... —

Day 653 What if the gift of patience? The gift of self discovery.

I was standing talking to a crowd, all the while it was as though the weight of fear was there, in each and every one, I noticed that this sense of futility came up, and yet, I could see this and remain within moving through this, as in not only seeing this, and speaking up f... —

Day 652 What does it mean to be practical, living here, in the moment. The Game of Mind Consciousness.

What does it mean to be practical, living here in the moment? I have to remind myself to practical reality in every moment, through reminding myself to stand up straight. I notice that physically, my body tells me in every moment where I am, what shadows of emotion and feeli... —

Day 651 The Word ' Practice" What I am doing when I skim a word!

I was reading this passage, and I noticed that I had skimmed the word ‘ practice.’ I went back and re-read the sentence and it was as though I could see a film over this word, like a glitch because in all reality, in all common sense, that word on that page, is the word ‘pract... —