Rebecca Dalmas

Day 685 The will to sort the unsorted to realize what is eternal, the absolute purpose of life.

Changing, looking away from judgement- a fear of loss. The will to withstand the test of time. Looking at my mind constructions, I see a pattern. I am using the means of understanding something, as the means to assess, to protect myself from having to stand through upsettin... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 684 Is my accepted and allowed automation reminding me of the seasons?

Am I automated within behaviors? Do I realize how automated I have become, missing the changes in the seasons, forgetting what happened last year at this time? Do I realize how much I am lost in my own measure, my own memory, my own past experience? Can I see that what is not ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 683 I am here.

I have this pain in my left foot at times. Not really strong. It feels like a presence, a veil of something heavy and dark. It is spite, which is a suppression of myself, a holding back, in order to survive. It is taking on a personification to fit into a metaphysical measure... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 682 Becoming a Point of Change. From Nothingness into Creation as What is Best for All.

Becoming a point of change, where change is a starting point in every moment. I am sitting with someone, and listening, I realize I am beginning to get tense, as though I am forming into something. The other day in a supermarket, I realized that I wanted to press a picture,... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 681 A self divided upon itself.

Today I had a meeting, and it seemed I could hold so much of it in one consistent form. It is an interesting thing, self discovery, because it is normal, it is practical, it is here. The chaos of a memory that has been allowed to become bigger than reality is the problem. The ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 680 Moving from mind consciousness to presence here, forgiving the stim of limitation.

I was out walking this morning, when I could see how I funneled myself into ideas, beliefs and opinions. Like I take the very focus of and as me and force it into a measure, like a construct of values within a creation as an image. There is this memory of a fear of not fit... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 679 Moving into reaction instead of solution.

Moving into reaction instead of solution. Yesterday I met someone while out in my world and had a conversation where I talked about some behaviors with a certain person in relation to dealing with someone we both knew. After the conversation, as I walked in the market, I ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 678 The ease that comes with self responsibility.

That a child is born without language and without culture, means that a child eventually is programmed. This means a human is a programmed man. What is behind that program is a form, that can take in information as what is impulsed within an environment. If what is programmed ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 677 Stopping Imagination to realize the value of being present.

I woke up in the morning And I noticed that I readily went into my imagination. I had to stop. It is like a pull into something to do, to be. Behind which one can create an outcome that allows one to win in one’s mind. And it has nothing to do with being here. It has nothin... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 676 Ideas need not define me, because what I am before ideas is physical.

I realize in so many ways how the habit of fear, of not looking here, can cause myself to want to hide or rush an idea into a situation. And all the while, that which is needed to solve problems is practical and measurable, right in front of me. The other day, in a presenta... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 675 Where am I constant?

I notice there are times when I do not react to another’s behavior. I noticed I become very patient It is like water rolling off of me. More often, I either do not respond, or in the same calm way that I am within not reacting, I speak up and reform what is said, in the third... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 674 Information is not free, yet information is free.

In the last days I notice a growing loopy-ness, as I call it. Meaning, I have a sense of not being grounded, present, here. It feels like there are too many things to juggle at the moment, like I am pulling stings and balancing them out. I watch for self pity, blame, spi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 673 I am the nature of change.

I realize that I fear change, and yet this is a natural ability within me, and the physical world surrounds me to enable me to change to fit with what is here, and to work with in ways that do no harm. I can see where television, imparts a vision that has nothing to do with... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 672 Returning to Common Sense.

Returning to common sense. Last night, as I was driving back from a second presentation for the week, I wanted to go into all manner of self doubt and give up. The problem is that the drama within and as me, had no common sense. This was myself looking at lack, instead of t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 671 Fearing to Let Self Definitions Go. Becoming the change I want to see.

Fearing to let self definitions go. In walking the journey to life I realize with each step, how much I allow knowledge and information to guide me, as in myself following information without respect for the source of that information which is this physical world. Thus, I r... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 659 The presence of a baby in nature; silent, stable, lite, fluid.

Yesterday I walked with my young three plus month old nephew. We walked around the house, his hands reaching out to touch what was before him, The baby also being aware of the spatial measure within the distance of his hand and what was before him. He would reach out, draw his... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 657 What leads is the past information, as what is here as the physical. What is Generation?

I can see the travesty of the refugee system where whole masses of people are running from bombs and destruction as drones and planes fly over and bomb this earth. How in any way does this make any sense? Human beings can create wonderful things, they are very very capable of... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 656 It is time to come home.

If I can only focus on one thing at a time, then the small is here right in front of me for me to use to direct myself in ways that do no harm. I have to feel here, the space around me, just as a young baby does, sensing the space as that arm begins to move from it’s side to a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 655 Personalities bouncing around as the pressures of life take their toll.

I was having a conversation about a family friend's daughter who had become the prodigal son- so to speak. This girl had rejected her family traditions and married someone outside of her culture. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it can lead to division if time is not t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 654 I may ground myself here, into equality and oneness with the physical to stand equal and one to life.

If I carry around my past, as all the experiences I have that are charged with fear, I cannot see the potential of what is here as the physical as life in expression. My reptilian brain stands with the weight of that charge, slowing me down, and all I see is threat and possibi... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 653 What if the gift of patience? The gift of self discovery.

I was standing talking to a crowd, all the while it was as though the weight of fear was there, in each and every one, I noticed that this sense of futility came up, and yet, I could see this and remain within moving through this, as in not only seeing this, and speaking up f... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 652 What does it mean to be practical, living here, in the moment. The Game of Mind Consciousness.

What does it mean to be practical, living here in the moment? I have to remind myself to practical reality in every moment, through reminding myself to stand up straight. I notice that physically, my body tells me in every moment where I am, what shadows of emotion and feeli... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 651 The Word ' Practice" What I am doing when I skim a word!

I was reading this passage, and I noticed that I had skimmed the word ‘ practice.’ I went back and re-read the sentence and it was as though I could see a film over this word, like a glitch because in all reality, in all common sense, that word on that page, is the word ‘pract... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 650 A reaction to a coffin carrier. The ghost in the machine composed of media and/or the past.

This weekend I came across an antique piece that was a panel on wheels, about two feet high, with a ‘Y’ fork on both sides. I kept staring at it wondering about its practical use. Meanwhile, I had a sense of dis-ease, that I would call having a quality of being morbid. I aske... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 649 The matrix of limitation, a tiny life.

Getting lost in the patterns falling down from my mind and believing the emotional bodies building within my lower back. I have been standing and facing people this summer with greater intensity than in the previous months. Within this, I begin to not only see my own patterns... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 648 A moment in mind consciousness ONLY! STOP!

Yesterday, I went into a sinking personification as a belief that I had failed, that getting through was impossible, and from there I realized, wait, it is a practical world where we create a within that is not equal to the without, an above that is not equal to the below. The... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 646 Peeling back the layers of belief that I repeated again and again.

I begin to feel that I keep saying the same things again and again, Yet this repetition is how I have built my own separation from living here, equal and one, in respect of reality, as the physical world. Thus, as I peel back the layers, what I find is a composition of value j... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 645 I am the Self Directive Principle of Me.

I noticed this week that in not reacting to the words of another, as the very measure of value and/or understanding about being here, that the emotional reactions as I see them manifest - as justifications based on good and bad, as a fear of ‘ what if’- quickly passed. The mom... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 644 Culture, Tradition, and Nutella. Emotional bonds and reality.

Culture, Tradition and Nutella. Emotional bonds and reality. http://www.wired.com/2010/07/0707chocolate-introduced-europe/ Europe Discovers Chocolate http://www.huffingtonpost.com/louise-mirrer/how-world-war-ii-changed-_b_2024730.html How the War Changed Everything, Even O... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 643 What is a thought? What is a feeling? What is an emotion?

All over the world we have what is known as education. People pay money for this, and communities create schools for this. We all understand that the apple does not fall far from the tree. Thus, we can all understand that when we have opportunity, we are exposed to all manner ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com