Rebecca Dalmas

Day 496 Who am I within the systemic culture of women? Self Forgiveness and Practical Application. Day 1

I have a morality point where I get pissed off when others are commiserating, especially amongst women. I see such as a social expectation where woman gather around and support emotional states, building ties as each carry the needs of the others, or that the connection is som... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 593 My Personality with Women Cont. Self Forgiveness

Continuation of My personality with women. The behaviors of suppression in fear of losing a friend as a consequence of this past event where I lost a friend because of criticism/evaluation-taken-personally of that friend’s mother by my father, I built a personality of fear... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 592 My Personality with Women Self Forgiveness

In the next blogs I am going to walk a point within my relationships with women. My personality with women. I had a memory come up during a conversation about women and how it is more difficult for me to talk with other woman then it is with men. As I talked about the me... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 591 The gift of Self Forgiveness

I notice as I step out and talk with people that I have so often not listened to the words the other speaks, as I have allowed myself to judge them based on how they dress, the way in which they use their words, the mannerisms they move as while they speak. I can become so oc... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 590 Repetitive Play, the Opportunity to Collect Data.

I have had a new person in my life for a few weeks. What I find so cool, is how much I am able to not take things personally, which I attribute to the Desteni I Process. Within this process I begin to see how my mind works, how thoughts work and how the accumulation of though... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 589 The Lag of Self Definition towards a Natural Expedition in Men

As each faction in our society looks in self interest into its own survival, there is a limitation within the collective communicating and sharing developments that lead to expediting actions needed to improve efficiency and give the space and time to understand practical real... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 588 Moving through the limitation of " I am uncomfortable."

I had a conversation with another person, where they began to use statements such as “ I am uncomfortable with this” as part of what I was speaking about. I have to realize that they are within their existence existing as a mind construct that is of belief, opinion and idea, n... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 587 Suppression: believing the entities of belief are real.

Suppression Character I have had some problems in my chest, it feels like there is this shield there. The pressure from this has been bothering me for some time. So, I looked at this point as a point of suppression. This suppression comes in a form or constriction, and if ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 584 How did I remove negativity from my life?

I realized that we live in a practical physical world. I realized that the thoughts I have are of opinion, idea and belief. I learned that these thoughts are often a judgement, in itself not a good or a bad, but when allowed to be a final definition in a physical existence, a... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 583 ISIS is mice confined in lack, unable to see the parts and the whole.

I heard directly from someone who had participated in a study with mice. They had placed mice in a limited structure to live together. As the mice reproduced and their numbers grew, they began to separate and build walls between themselves, eventually attaching one another in ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 582 The Slow Motion of Entities as Mind Constructed of Thoughts.

Substance is a fluid thing, one that can take many forms, and even become something less than that of a solid sound structure. A thought is such a thing, and it has not real self directive relation to practical reality, though a thought can be a directive, but this is all, as ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 581 What would you want for yourself?

We understand that plants need water and the stuff of soil: minerals, enzymes, sunlight etc. We understand that children need education, which means exposure and opportunity to grow. If a parent does not have a wage and/or the time to expose a child to many things, then the c... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 580 Instead of Restricting Speech, Remove Anonymity.

If we decided to legalize drugs then many of the problems associated with the “ war” on drugs would come to an end, and the use of drugs would become more transparent, meaning visible, open, and as such the moving into solving the problems that lead into an excessive use of a ... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 579 How come there is organization to replicate lost keys, but not solve poverty?

The keys to my car have recently been lost, the spare key forgotten. I called the car dealership to find out if there was a way to get another key. They said, sure, just bring in the registration and a new key can be made. I got two. lol Such organization, where numbers of t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 570 Transnational movement is a reflection of our minds of separation.

http://www.nytimes.com/2014/06/22/opinion/sunday/why-are-we-importing-our-own-fish.html?_r=1 http://www.mintpressnews.com/congress-moves-expedite-gas-exports-heightening-fracking-concerns/190061/ http://www.infowars.com/obama-allows-great-lakes-water-to-be-sold-to-china-as... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 569 Reacting to the statement " too much reality." Self forgiveness

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to another when they react to too much reality, and as such move into limited value instead of seeing the conflicting beliefs that are often different sides of the same coin, in a world where such exists as the expre... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 568 Moving " upon" the section of a group.

In looking at words and what memories come up, a thought and memory came up with the word ‘ upon,” which means to be “connected with.” I read this word as up on, and then I was in a memory of sitting in an orchestra section and having the thought “ Move up on.” It was the ide... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 567 A belief as " having to contend with a group."

Memory pops up of middle school. Lost my “ best “ friend. When I found out she was running for Orchestra President, I decided to run too. I ran and I won. She cried at the bus stop that day. I was a mixture of elation at having won and guilt that I had run in reaction. I reali... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 566 Self Forgiveness on Getting too Occupied with Organization in mind ONLY.

I notice at night that I become overwhelmed with reading posts etc. And I remember when my children were younger and I went back to school, I felt that I had too many logistical things to do in terms of taking care of a house and then sitting and learning an order of words, as... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 565 Distraction away from Common Sense into an Idea of Gain

I realize that I have been having expectations, and then I fall because these expectations do not play out. I then go into analyzing the situation to discover a mis-step. Then a rant starts in wanting to blame something and become obsessive in figuring out how to address this... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 564 Apathy and Sound Mind. The Journey of Limitation into Common Sense.

Apathy, I am looking at where and when I first wanted to participate and could not because I could not express myself. I remember being in the elementary schools and the middle schools, realizing that what children wanted more than anything was to be able to participate, an... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 263 A sound form begins with each of us.

What does it mean to captain, and can humans “ captain” anything else but what they are a their form and function as men? Look at a captain of a ship, for example. Someone must care for the sails, another the tiller, another the longitude and the latitude measure. And I am t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 562 The Limitation of the Conspiracy of Self Interest in Zimbabwe and within Myself

http://truth-out.org/news/item/24051-small-farmers’-loss-of-land-increases-world-hunger http://twistedsifter.com/2013/08/maps-that-will-help-you-make-sense-of-the-world/ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Indigenisation_and_Economic_Empowerment_Act http://www.zimbabwesituation.co... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 561 My Commitment as The Desteni of Living

The Desteni of Living Realising and living my utmost potential Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all Living by the principle of self honesty – t... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

The Economy of the Ecology Punishing the Poor For Egotistic Self Interest

Mr. Gaddafi had intended the scheme to be designed by Libyans, constructed by Libyans, for the benefit of the Libyan population. Now it is being redesigned by Frenchmen and women at inflated costs, constructed by French contractors, largely for the benefit of French shareholde... —youtube.com

Day 550 The storied existence of the NOW and the presence of HERE.

I am looking at the word “ now.” It means to be a historical story as a point that is a sequence of events built from a past. This means that one is in a state that is of a story of a series of events. If I allow myself to be defined as this, then I am not here, I am a “ now”... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 549 The journey to life is to rule equal to the measure of the physical.

I had a conversation with someone where they talked about a friend who had put together some entertainment to raise money for breast cancer. So what is good here and what can be changed into understanding what we as humans are doing and the sense of it practically? Orga... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 548 Personalities within a group meeting.

I notice three personalities come up this past week, and I have had a tension headache ever since. One was a projection into the future, a desire to make some headway, the second was a past personification of failure, as in fear of making a mistake, and the third was a disli... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 547 The inner-rest of interest in separation from physical life.

I am looking at my heart, an what is happening there. I notice that I have what feels like a solid “ block” in my left calf. It is getting better, but I have to slow down and breath, and “ read” the construction of belief that I have accepted and allowed within that is the cau... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

Day 546 The clock work of my emotions.

I remember in my forties that I would inevitably go into a reactive angry emotion the day before my period. Now, I have had my period every month, like clock work, never missing this unless I was pregnant. I am a perfect text-book in terms of this feminine cycle. Never missed,... —awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com