Thomas La Grua

On the Message of Equality

Clearly, no matter how much one write about the consequences that we human beings have caused unto ourselves and this world as a whole, there will continue to be a percentage that will fight to the bitter-end against Equality, in favor of – by default, their perceived right to... —

Day 106: Seeing me in Others

Last night, I ended up going over to a friend's house for the purpose of giving him some legal advice on a case he is perusing against a certain organization/business. My advise was simple: accept whatever their next offer is or may be and walk away. In the course of conversi... —

Day 105: Anxiety, Anxiousness, Excitement...

As I’ve stated many times before, although it may appear in different shapes and sizes, it's always only just Fear. It comes, and even though I rarely give it more than a fraction of a second to check what it's pertaining to, it often still lingers. Using a technique I learn... —

Day 103: Letting go of the "Idea" of Freedom

Recently I've been dreaming about Mexico. It's actually an encompassing experience/definition that I have of Central America, but mostly it pertains to Mexico, my experiences there of. The closest word that comes up is “freedom,” which is kind of silly because most of the time... —

Day 103: Polarities, Freedom vs. Survival

I've written about shame, the place within/as me, us all that we dare not go, because to do so would mean giving up the illusion, having to face ourselves, and take responsibility with no strings attached. I realize that much of what I speak/write is still but ideas based in t... —

Day 102: Tracking down, Shame

I going to delve deeper into the meaning of the word, shame. Why, because as the little boy said as he ran back into the house where the monster of the pig-headed man, “The party's just getting started,” and “that's where the fun is!” He was right; the most fun always is – in ... —

Day 101: Shame Rant

Shame! Shame! Shame! Shame on You! What you gonna do when they come for you? What you gonna do when you stand in front of that mirror, ask yourself why you didn't stand up for your brothers and sisters – the blood of you? Where were you when the hungry cried? Where where you w... —

Day 101:

Interestingly, when I scan back through much of my life, and recall the points of wanting/needing something, striving for it and getting it, I realize that those points were all of the starting point of mind/energy/fear, projected onto a goal, leading me to physically move mys... —

Day 99: More on Change and the Symbolism of Words

Change, I define as the difference between two or more points. Each point/moment/breath is an opportunity to direct self to become that which One is becoming (Humpty Dumpty putting self back together again), within/as A-wareness: either here in/as the present/gift to be lived... —

Day 98: Round and round the merry-go-round

Round and round I go, sitting around with nothing to do. Too much time on my hands, if only I had something productive to do. Move myself, I say to myself, and I do, I move, but it's still only me and a stranger sitting next to me. I call for my friend, Happy to outside for a ... —

Day 97: Writing to Right

Mine eyes have perceived an image of me, and although I’ve perceived there may be worse, I realize there is much more to me than just this perception. I no longer agree to view images through the TV inside/as my mind; I will see, being that which is here. If only it were as si... —

Day 96: Energy Entity

The other day I reacted to seeing one of my posts reposed. Illogical yes, but that's what reactions are, illogical. It was an energy-entity type reaction, not so much associated with a personality as much as it was latent unaddressed guilt for having judged myself as not movin... —

Day 95: What is Change?

Looking at humanity's history of the usage of the word, change, I see that (like most words in this world), it has been used and abused to evoke positive images of more money, prosperity, beauty, etc. While that which physically matters such as the environment, nature, animal ... —

Chinese New Year Holiday

Going back to sleep and waking up again, I see me as the mind attempting to jump in here and there to explain to me this and advise on that – how it is, could would and should be. As I watched for it and each time stopped it – usually only to an extent, I realized that my min... —

Day 93: Time to check out the countryside

This is basically how I’ve been making my way through the world system as far back as I remember, stopping for a while, exploring, and then moving on. There are considerations that I apply to where I work and live, such as the cost of living, the currency rate, the environme... —

Day 92: Why do I write similar Self-forgiveness and Self-corrective statements over and over again?

Writing the same statements over and over again makes it appear as though I am making the same mistakes over and over again, which leaves me exposed as being less than I have imagined/ portrayed myself to be. So, why do still it; because (as is seen from the statement above) m... —

Day 91: Cannibalism

I just had another dream, it was similar to the scary ones I used to have while growing up. The dream was of seeing and participating in the aftermath of a societal-breakdown. It was chaos and cannibalism – hunger rules. In the dream, society quickly breaks down, and food beco... —

Day 90: Projecting outward The inward Path

Yesterday, in reference to Transitioning to Equal Money capitalism, I wrote the following: The way to win this game is to end it once and for all, terminating the old and birthing the new at the same time. We start at the bottom, and systematically begin turning off the power... —

Day 89: Suppressed Negativity Part 2, Ending the Game, Brick by Brick

I usually write with some measure of pretense that the nature of who we are as beings, deep down inside will eventually show, growing to become an unstoppable force of Benevolent change to bring about the new world order of Equality. It really is just a pretense – me in writin... —

Day 88: Suppressed Negativity

Over the last 3-4 weeks, I've experienced kind of a condensed version of what I experienced a while back when I suddenly stopped writing. It feels kind of like withdrawal symptoms – writing and self-forgiveness withdrawals. What happened (from my perspective) is that right aro... —

DAy 87: Spring Cleaning

Spring cleaning, Chinese New Year, the Festival of Spring: cleaning the house, doing things that require to be done every so often, and just relaxing a bit. Spring Festival is a time to visit family, clean the house... Really, it's just like any other holiday, corrupted by con... —

Carrying Past definitions

A point that has come up regularly through-out my life has to do with cars/vehicles – specifically their potential to break-down or malfunction, unto which I have often projected my aggravation/exacerbation/desperation... Today has to do with registering my car, the old car th... —

The immaturity of Today's so-called of the so-called Free world

What may I say that hasn't been said so many times, already in so many ways. Looking at the world through the eyes of mine, at the news, at the so-called leaders of the so-called free world, I would laugh if it weren't so pitiful. Really, is this what maturity is about; is thi... —

Implementing an Equality System

Removing the Current World System and Implementing of an Equality System Desteni EQAFE DIP Lite Creation's Journey to Life Heaven's Journey to Life Earth's Journey to Life Thomas La Grua —

Day 84: The little energies

Lately, I haven't had that much in terms of reactions or energy participation that I saw an urgency to write about. Mostly it's just been thought projections that I’m still accepting and allowing – as though the little stuff is not so important. About three weeks to a month ag... —

Day 85: Reacting to students who refuse to participate in the Program.

The other day in my 3rd grade class, I kept asking a girl, to pay attention and take notes. Finally I asked her why she wasn't taking notes, and she says, “My father doesn't want me to write this.” Right there I reacted, and the words came out inside me, “What do mean you Fath... —

Day 82: Who has earned the Right to Life?

Equal Money Newsletter So it has been through history, the right to life, mortgaged to the bank, crown, government, slave traders..., what's in a name, miss a payment, they still take your home, your life away. Smooth talking politicians, puppet poster boys and girls for t... —

Seeing where I am.wmv

In this video I'm speaking about me, so as to see me, where I'm at. DIP Lite Creation's Journey to Life Heaven's Journey to Life Earth's Journey to Life Thomas La Grua —

Day 81: Mind - your Weapons of Mass Destruction

Today I was reading a “Heaven's Journey to Life” blog, and it occurred to me (I guess you could say clicked), why it is that we as human beings continue to argue/fight among each other, about “everything,” and never actually get down to addressing the source-point from which “... —

Day 80: No Doom's day today

I’d be lying if I said that I haven't for a long time been hoping, perhaps the last of my hopes, that the end of the Mayan cycle would produce something, a wake-up call if you will to humanity, that change is now the order of the day. Alas, the day has come and almost gone, an... —