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It’s funny out of all the memories, the mind will only present the nasty/painful ones, I wonder why, and it should make us wonder about the workings of the mind. I mean so many memories, of all kinds, yet a very particular memory is what I saw in a semi-dream state other day, ... —antonfernando.com
I must ask this question, what is it, my is all about? I have been taking things for granted, taking people for granted, amazing, looks like I took everything for granted, I mean, pretty fucked up shit we end up doing to others when we take them for granted. Taking one’s job f... —antonfernando.com
Writing to right, writing is righting. Writing is a process of self-correction, and yes it must be lived also. Writing helps in other ways too, to release all that weight in the head, to get them out, and write them out. But for real release, and self-correction, writing of se... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear when I am given new projects and asked to investigate the root cause of a problem. In this I see/realize that giving into fear of not finding a solution is not the right starting point, rather, I direct myself to... —antonfernando.com
I have to write a blog today, have been missing a few here and there. Though I see there is a slight resistance, calling it tiredness is easy way out, but I am pushing through, just keep on writing, I mean there is always something to write. There is so much bullshit going on ... —antonfernando.com
I was driving other day for 5 hours, during which time I was listening to eqafe.com interviews (MP3s), loads of common sense and realizations. I know if I tell this to my friend Mike, he will ask “so tell me one thing you learned”. One thing I learned from it would be, take th... —antonfernando.com
Daily writing continues. Today I was taken by fear. Fear sucks. At the same time, I overcame it. Just stick to the practical things, the list of things to do, accomplish, instead of panicking or fearing. Making a list helps, instead of allowing the mind to be consumed with fea... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, breath is the key, to slow down, to pause, and to direct myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize living means to live breath by breath, not memory by memory... —antonfernando.com
So start writing says Bernard. Writing is righting. In writing, we can see what’s going on and place the mind shit onto paper, instead of carrying them within me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can ‘think’ through my problems instea... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I have allowed this parasite to rule over me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my mind is a parasite, just here to suck the life energy out of the physical bo... —antonfernando.com
Listening to death research interviews done by eqafe.com is really cool. One of the points I got was, how the body is left to die by itself, while the mind conveniently ditches the body in the final moments. Having sucked the substance/life energy out of the physical body for ... —antonfernando.com
Daily writing continues. Breathing is a good way to start writing. Even after 300+ days of writing, the tendency postpone, neglect is still around, meaning still looking for ways to skip days, find excuses, reasons, justifications why I can miss a day or two. Getting on with i... —antonfernando.com
I am responsible for myself. I am responsible for what I allow and accept as thoughts, emotions and feelings. No matter how and what another says, it is within my responsibility always on how I take that, or how I react because I am responsible for what goes within me. I mean ... —antonfernando.com
Self-responsibility is a key thing that I have overlooked in my life, meaning I have a limited application of it, not seen/realizing that in every breath one must be self-responsible and that means a whole lot. Everything that goes on in the head I am responsible for, cannot l... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rattle mentally, and emotionally not seen/realizing how this can impact my body, the water pond where so many life forms live and co-exist. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize i... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek attention by showing off my work, always wanting some approval, recognition and validation, instead of directing myself to work as if I am doing it for myself, not needing/wanting approval. I forgive myself that ... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize this process is about taking self-responsibility for myself, for my life, and for this world. This is not about seeking attention for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not... —antonfernando.com
I have heard about this Japanese Hara breathing before, it’s where you expand the stomach with in-breath, hold, and then contract with out-breath. I find this is supportive, though not possible to breathe every breath like that, but certainly a tool I am considering to apply t... —antonfernando.com
Mind is an addiction machine, a whole lot of things I do are a result of addiction. How I think is an addiction, what I think is an addiction, my anger is an addiction, my mood is an addiction, my general emotional/mental state is an addiction, my sexual desires are an addicti... —antonfernando.com
I have to really check my thinking process. Some uncool consequences are manifesting in my life. There isn’t much I can do about what I have already created, I can only forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to demonize people inside my head and blame them accu... —antonfernando.com
One thing I realize is that allowing and accepting thoughts about a person to run unchecked/wild will soon bring about nasty outbursts. Granted people do terrible things to each other, but allowing that to entertain endless thinking/fantasy can soon bring about more trouble. I... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always look for the easy way out. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that taking the easy way out is NOT living, it just passing time on earth till the grave arrives. I forgive... —antonfernando.com
Join this FREE Self-Writing Course. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to another when I am asked to help with anything. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume a superior position and then make snide, condescen... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/react to human voices as ‘irritating’, ‘annoying’, ‘unbearable’, ‘Blamey’, etc. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react and be angry when I hear certain voices and tones. I forgive myse... —antonfernando.com
Join this FREE Self-Writing Course. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that my process is to be walked in every breath, as this is not a project to be attended every now and then. This is not a retreat or a meditation getaway. I am walk... —antonfernando.com
Hard to believe I have reached to day 300. That’s the good news, but the bad news is I missed about 40 days in that, I should been around 300+ today, so that reminds me to reassess my commitment to daily writing because I have missed a whole lot of days. There is no big deal i... —antonfernando.com
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear new information. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to mistrust information. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear trying things out based on information I have di... —antonfernando.com
Join this FREE Self-Writing Course. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my job. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my job and then losing the ‘good life’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed... —antonfernando.com
Join this FREE Self-Writing Course. Some bits and pieces of writing today. Breathe, listen, and stop the voice in the head. Anu has some interesting things to say in his eqafe.com interviews. I heard the term ‘mind initiated physical reality’ – meaning the mind is basically le... —antonfernando.com
Join this FREE Self-Writing Course. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize ‘giving excuses’ is pretty lame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize ‘telling the problem’ is ok, but then where is the solut... —antonfernando.com
