Member since April 2015.

Carlton Tedford

Day 335: Extra Baggage

I was reading This article on the Desteni Website the other day and realized a fascinating thing that was being said about how; “Not all the thoughts you have go anywhere. Those thoughts that is irrelevant to your environment or … and to yourself and so on – go sit in your bod... —

Day 334: My Process Then and Now

Around about three years or so ago, I embarked on a fascinating Journey which started my process of becoming self-aware, meaning going from being totally brainwashed and just following along with what society has deem as living life and the pursuit of happiness, to realizing w... —

Day 333: We Would Rather

We would rather do anything else with our time, accept being Here, I mean here is too much right now, because I’m on my phone and that takes presentence over anything. I mean come on, without my phone I would die. We would rather walk in the middle of the street to avoid any p... —

Day 332: I’m Tired of This S.H.I.T.

Acronym = Still Holding Internal Turmoil. Have you ever had this gut feeling that feels like something just isn’t right within you, that something is misaligned inside you and you just can’t pin point it? I mean it seems as if you are doing everything that you possibly can wit... —

Day 331: Knowledge Quest

What are we looking for so frantically? What are we searching for? Is it the “more of” something that we are missing, in searching for it, are we making the correct decision? Do we investigate what we find and keep that which is good? When we find something good, is it well un... —

Day 330: Hidden Anxiety

For some time now I have been experiencing this movement, coming up within my solar plexus that I couldn’t describe, wherever a situation would arise, or whenever something would be coming up that I had to take care of and/or do. Now this movement, was sort of a shaky vibratio... —

Day 329: Directing Me

Within an orchestra and/or symphony, you have different sections of instruments all working together to create an ensemble of harmonious music and then you have the Director who conducts the orchestra and/or symphony, that pieces the music together to create one sound with dif... —

Day 328: Reeling Me In

If you have ever been fishing, you’ll know the process it takes to catch a fish, where of course you have to have the right bait to catch different specific types of fish, but the process that I’d like to discuss here is, once the fish is on the line, the reeling in process in... —

Day 327: Unmasking Self

Often times we present ourselves with a mask on as a facade to cover up what’s really going on inside of us, in our minds. But most of the times in doing so, we end up showing the true nature of ourselves, meaning we end up acting out what we think about others, in our secret ... —

Day 326: Stop Here, Stop There

On a road trip, often times there is quite a few stops along the way, where if the trip is kind of a long one, then you’ll have to stop to use the bathroom, then stop to get something to eat, then stop to rest and then maybe stop to take in a few sights why’ll travelling, amon... —

Day 325: Monitoring Self

When you reach a certain age where you cannot do the things you once did when you were younger, there is a thing called life alert that many older folk wear around there neck, that if something was to happen to you, you can press this button and help is on the way, then on the... —

Day 324: 12 o Clock

When the clock strikes 12, thus the end of a spell and we celebrate for getting through another year of hell. Praise God, Buddha, Jesus and Mohammad, then at 12:01 we again rebel, even though we just Re-Sold the Solution, in exchange for a bottle of Bubbly to lift our spirits ... —

Day 323: Surrender

In Las Vegas there is a club inside one of the Casinos, connected to one of their swimming pools called Surrender, where people go and party. Within this club there are a few things that one can do like, gambling, dancing, socializing and drinking of course. For what it’s wort... —

Day 322: What We Condone as Men

It’s funny how we as men, boys, guys have this unspoken language of sorts, when it comes to looking at women, where if a lady, girl walks by and two guys are in the vicinity, who don’t even know each other, after she passes by, they’ll look at each other, smile and shake their... —

Day 321: Contorted Message

You really have to watch what you say to some people, because if what you say is not clear, they will take what you said and contort it, in front of other people, why’ll adding in their version to make it seem as if they made it up, why’ll (again) trying to make you look good ... —

Day 320: Don’t Let It Go Outside this Room.

In many secret meeting, discussions behind closed doors, at the end of the meeting, the last thing that’s said is; “Don’t let it go outside this room” or “Don’t let what we discussed go outside this room, for reasons that may be consequential to yourself or others. Now what’s ... —

Day 319: Cut It Out

Growing up whenever I would act or behave a certain way, that was unbecoming in the eyes of my parents, I was told to “Cut it out”. Whenever things didn’t go my way and I would cry, trying to get my way, I was told to “Cut it out”, meaning to stop what I was doing and in a sen... —

Day 318: After This

After this, I’m going to do that and after that, I’m going to do this. There’s really nothing wrong with plans, but when you constantly, continuously think about them in projecting into the future, is when you really have a problem. The problems that has come up for me is, fir... —

Day 317: Comparison Pt 2

This blog is in addition to a previous post, Day: 127, where another dimension in Comparison has come up within and as me, so I will investigate it until I have completely correct it within myself. Why is most, if not every thought we think, about someone else and never about ... —

Day 316: Early Bird Gets The Worm

Although it’s true that your body needs rest from time to time, throughout my life, I’ve over did it, from the perspective of getting, thinking/perceiving/believe that I need a lot of sleep, getting too much sleep. Meaning I never used to like getting up in the mornings, it wa... —

Day 315: What If

What if you woke up and realized that you were God all along, but had just abdicated your responsibility to life, because that’s all you were taught and couldn’t remember anything else, that at the beginning of time you implanted a God program chip inside your Mind, as a remin... —

Day 314: Look at Me

Look at me, look how I look, look at what I’ve got, look at what I’ve done, did you see what I was wearing the other day? I was in a magazine, I was on the News, I was in the Newspaper. Did you see me on T.V.? Watch me do this or that, watch how I can do this and that. All eye... —

Day 313: Nobody else

When I was a child, whenever I would get in trouble, I would always think, why didn’t this or that person get in trouble, which showed that I was more concerned with what happened or didn’t happen to other people, instead of really realizing what was going to happen to me. In ... —

Day 312: How many Times

So today, I want to write about a point that came up why’ll working, that I had a realization on. How many times have you gotten angry after the fact of doing something, because you knew before had what would happen? In relations to getting angry after the fact, there have be... —

Day 311: Before Hand

Before I hand myself over to my mind, I commit myself to stopping my thoughts. Before I make any plans, I commit myself to investigate. Before I participate in any conversation, I commit myself to introspection, to see if there is any movements of emotions or feelings coming u... —

Day 310: Let’s Forget about what just Happened

The way the News broadcast works is the same way our minds work, where with the News, it will tell you and/or show you something tragic and 2 second later, how about that sports catch of the week, as in saying; “Let’s forget about what just happened and move on to something ha... —

Day 309: Walking on Egg Shells

I have defined “Walking on egg shells”, in relations to other people, where around certain people, I didn’t want to hurt their feeling out of my own self-interest. At that time in my life I was too interested in what other people thought about me and didn’t give a damn about m... —

Day 308: But Myself

We rant and rave about this and that person, on how he or she did this and that to us, then turn around and look at ourselves in disgust. We get into arguments on the street corners, thinking I’m looking out for myself, but who are we really arguing with, none other but myself... —

Day 307: Face

“Ah, don’t let it touch my face”. “Get it off of my face”. “I got a pimple on my face, now I can’t go”. “How will I be able to face people, when my face looks like this”? “What’s wrong with your face”? “Fix you face boy, straighten up here”. “it’s written all over your face, y... —

Day 306: Thanksgiving

What is it that you have to be thankful for, is it because you’re alive and chose to be here, then on this day eating a turkey as your next of kin, then after you finish you turn the game on, and sit in your chair that you call your throne, then you dose off why’ll eating a sn... —