Member since April 2015.

Carlton Tedford

Day 475: Mind Hoarder

It’s a mess in here, like opening the closet and things falling out on your head, as your head is where you hoard all your thoughts, then open up your mouth as the closet door to your mind and watch all the shit that comes out of it. It’s been over due for a spring cleaning in... —

Day 474: How Easy It Is to Be Spiteful Like You/Like Me

Turn the other cheek ‘yeah right’, I want to get even, because you made me feel a certain way when you did what you did, as one of the calling cards of Humanity, meaning, you pull my card, best believe Ima pull yours. Tit for Tat as a model to live by that we teach our childre... —

Day 473: Hello is Anyone Listening (A Note to Self)

Even if broadcasted over a loud speaker throughout the world at full volume, would the message be heard or would we just keep on instant messaging our friends, asking what we’re doing tonight? Thing is most of us don’t have answers to the pressing questions that plagues humani... —

Day 472: Reduced to an Act (Self-Forgiveness)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have reduced myself to an act, another character trait, time and time again throughout my life, to no avail which always ended in a stale mate of consequences as punishment to no resolve, until later on in my life, wh... —

Day 471: Reduced to an Act

Reduced to Another Character Trait, acting out a feeling and/or Emotion, where the stage is set that is not conducive to what we feel in the moment, so we go into the dressing room in our minds and put on the Character suit that best suits the situation, person or incident we’... —

Day 470: Everything Around You

Believe it or not is there to assist and support you, to understand who you are, to test you for reactions, to stop you from letting your attention be diverted, when you should be focusing on a specific thing, including the situations we enter become a test of patience, a way ... —

Day 469: A Few Words About Suppression

The thought that one gets, in thinking I feel like I’m going to die, when experiencing pain throughout one’s body, leads to going to the doctor and getting medication as an intern cure for the pain that suppresses the pain, is an excuse and justification to not have to face wh... —

Day 468: Control

As a Consciousness Troll puppet you around on a string. One of the most profound stories of control (believe it or not) is the story of Pinocchio, a created puppet on a string made by a woodcraftsman name Geppetto, who controlled Pinocchio. To make a long story short, in the s... —

Day 467: If the Tables Were Turned

What if it was you that fed the masses humanity with your flesh, what if it was you lying on the Forest floor with a 30 odd 6 bullet hole in your chest, waiting to be skinned, cut up and shoved in the deep freezer, then hacked limb by limb with a meat cleaver. What if it was y... —

Day 466: Calm as Suppression

I’ve never really been the rowdy type, although I’ve had plenty of friends like that, thing is I would always suppress my rowdiness, hold it in and on the outside present myself as Calm, claiming that it takes a lot to piss me off, when all I was doing was using my Calm demean... —

Day 465: Human Idealism (A different perspective)

Why is it that we think that we can and will survive, by fighting each other at every turn about ways and means of survival, who should survive, whose fit to live and who should die? It’s like a sprint to the apocalypse, while calling it the survival of the fittest, I mean in ... —

Day 464: Common Sharing

They say sharing is caring, but if you have to say that you share because you care, then is it really sharing at all, or some karmic experience you hope to achieve when giving things to others. We claim that we do things out of the goodness of our heart, but if you didn’t have... —

Day 463: The Extreme

Why do we allow our minds to take things to the extreme, uncontrollably so, I mean if we really realized what we were doing to ourselves, wishing bad onto one another unconsciously, then afterwards saying; “Where the hell did that thought come from”, “why do I think like this”... —

Day 462: Starting from Scratch

Dumb Down, a long way from where it all began, they say that I was born in sin, and I believed it and became sinful to the core, full of sin to the point of creating War within myself, mayhem from the way I thought, sorting discord amongst the brethren, while claiming it’s not... —

Day 461: Energy Experiences

Have you ever wondered why you get tired and run out of breath? That’s because we’re too busy chasing after energy experiences, the ups then the downs and the highs then the lows, I mean it’s like an adrenaline rush without going anywhere, all bright eyed and bushy tailed, gaz... —

Day 460: Friends

What is it that you can say to someone, who confide in you that they will act a certain way when faced with an upcoming situation, before going into a mind possession, then end up regretting the decision they made to do what they did after the fact? Friends. You know how you w... —

Day 459: Taking A Walk In The Mind

“Can somebody please point me in the right direction?” The most thought about but seldom sought out question one could ask, should ask, but pass to chance, going down the lonely but exciting road of ignorance. It’s bliss in the moment, the secret nothing whispering in your min... —

Day 458: Hope/Wishes/Dreams

I Wish I had a million dollars, I’ll save the world, then get a million dollars and forget everything you just said, being that in most cases you won’t even help your own family members if they’re in need. I wish that I was magic and could disappear from this place, the abdica... —

Day 457: Triggers

Let me paint you a picture. The bullet of a Gun travels through a chamber headed for its intended target, triggered by a firing pin that’s released by the Triggering Mechanism, pulled by a finger after the hammer is cocked back by a thumb, triggered by a reaction coming from a... —

Day 456: Waiting to Exhale

In strenuous situations why is it that we hold our breath, until the initial shock is over then we Exhale, having to catchup on the breaths we missed, causing our hearts to start racing at a fast pace in that moment in time, where we’re waiting to Exhale at the drop of a dime.... —

Day 455: It’s Not the Same as Before

There’s this old Gospel song we used to sing at the Church I went to growing up, with lyrics that goes; “Things I used to do, I don’t do no more”, I mean obviously, back then it was rather confusing, because what I thought I shouldn’t do, I saw others do and get away with it, ... —

Day 454: No Follow Through

Good intentions get you nowhere, because what you intended to do you didn’t do, which shows that you have no follow through. In the midst of saying that we will do something, most of the time we really mean it, but our meaning never justifies the end, because in the end there ... —

Day 453: Critique

(Note to Self) It’s one thing to ask question, if you know what questions to ask, obviously one has to know what’s going on with you in order to set you straight in a way, critique what you’re doing correctly or not doing correctly, Constructive Criticism is always welcome, bu... —

Day 452: Anticipation

When I was little and was told something, then left waiting, I would have this anxiety, nervousness and fear coming up within and as me, butterflies in my stomach and shaking profusely, this was of course in expectation of being/getting in trouble, where the time in between (t... —

Day 451: Does The Good You Do Outweigh the Bad?

When one is on a diet and have been following the guidelines of the diet to the tee, what comes up is the thought of doing something bad, like eating cake or sweets, things that bad for your teeth and so on that doesn’t coincide with your diet you’re on, but tell ourselves; “W... —

Day 450: I Just Don’t Like You

What is this feeling inside us that makes us believe that we don’t like someone, for the simple fact that they’re new or see someone for the first time, too many times? I’m serious this is crazy, where the new person who comes around a family, a group of friends, a new hire at... —

Day 449: In Common

Just because you don’t have anything in common with someone anymore, does it dictate that your friendship with this person should be terminated? People change with the times, what may be good for the goose may not be good for the gander any longer, but it doesn’t mean that the... —

Day 448: You’re Weird

Why is it that when a person has been living doing things a certain way all their life, then decide to do things different, we classify them as weird, from the perspective of having new viewpoints, looking at things differently, stating the obvious, talking about real issues a... —

Day 447: Plan/Plans/Planning (continued)

Previously on Plan/Plans/Planning: Don’t just plan to change, change your plan to doing that which is best for all life. I previously showed how we’ve perpetuated Plan/Plans/Planning on a negative level, in spiteful ways that I have seen throughout my life and in some ways hav... —

Day 446: Plan/Plans/Planning

They say that piss poor planning makes for poor performance, which in some cases is true in relation to business, on the other hand we commonly say things like; “I have a plan”, a divisible way of getting back at someone, retribution, revenge among the many negative aspects th... —